| Demons and Wizards – Down Where I Am Lyrics | 5 months ago |
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My personal Interpretation btw from a personal experience: Lyrics: Isn't it great to see how life begins Things may change, let the joy begin Can you hear this new life crying Breathe it out, it will be worth it Show me your newborn smile My thoughts: A new born baby (my very first personally) and the joy that comes with experiencing this, a new connection, responsibility, love, to give my all for it, be it life or death- something just innate. My wife and I had a beautiful son so my feelings of this part was immensely full... of life/meaning. lyrics: (Please tell me why) I don't wanna hold you I don't wanna see you (Please tell me why) 'Cause even your smile hurts Oh it hurts like hell My thoughts: This part is where it really hits me to the core, because of a news I got from my then wife. Mind you after 1 year of being a dad and just full of caring and me being there on my sons first touch of sand on a beach, waking up on those endless nights to comfort those cries, laughters, pictures, videos etc etc. lets move on... Lyrics: Isn't it good to see how life begins There's no sin and there's no crime Down where I am there's no bitter end at all This bitterness is endless, keeps going on and on My thoughts: as said above the beauty of a having a child (especially a first) is truly something otherworldly special. After I got that news from my wife that "bitterness" feeling is what really destroyed me and it was just so "endless" and "kept going on and on"...will touch on the news later. Lyrics: I don't wanna hold you I don't wanna see you Even birth can bare disgrace I don't wanna hold you I don't wanna see you Or even the smile upon your face My thoughts: Yes it is the second time it's mentioned in the song but personally it further buried me deeper to hear it again because that child suddenly change my entire life's perspective and meaning. So the news my wife had was that my child was not mine all along. As you can imagine that shock did me in. I was so devastated but even then I wanted to be a part of the boys life....but felt this next part of the song: Lyrics: I fear my heart and fear my soul And all the things that are unknown There's a chance things will turn wrong, my friend Far too fast I'm losing ground Well, let's face it here and now You're not welcome you should know My thoughts: I tried so hard to be a part of his life after the news. Sure many can say you would have dipped at the second you heard the news but it was very different for me. 10 years with her, sure there was ups and downs who doesn't have them, but having a child. your very first. Memories built and even our relationship grew stronger. At least it felt to me. but the news dropped like Hiroshima Lyrics: I fear my heart and fear my soul Life goes on it surely will Without me it will wither Will I ever see light again Will I ever see light again Oh life goes on My thoughts: I tried to hang on (to what!!!!). Hard to lose my man and lose hard. Even worst when you mean good and was always good in terms of being responsible and blah blah, I failed on something no doubt so im not pointing fingers. At the end of the day and matter of factly the boys REAL dad suddenly wanted to be a part of his life. THAT was a turning point for me and ment I had to wither away and be gone. NOT EASY. Hell, to forget and to just throw that true feeling you had of having a boy of your own away was like losing someone close -to death. That is as close as I can say it. Took years to let it sink and plenty of DUIs and AAA and personal bullshit because of it but this song hits me that way....Cheers all and keep it metal. Lyrics: I don't wanna hold you I don't wanna see you A tear of joy turned into grief (I can't stand it anymore) Down where I am that's where darkness grows The silence is your only friend |
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