| Thursday – I Am The Killer Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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This song (to me) is about the summer I was totally hooked on meth. I know a summer isn't a long time, but it seemed like forever, and i hated it. I was high all the time and only slept an average of about 20 hours a week. Finally i did quit, but i was so physically addicted that the withdrawal made me pass out. It was bad. "Tuesday wakes up silent And there aren't enough pills to sleep" Tuesday wakes up, even though you didn't sleep... kind of like it wakes up without you, and you want to sleep, you've been laying in bed staring at the ceiling since 4 in the morning, and your eyes burn, and you've been awake for 2 or 3 days, maybe more, so long that you start to hallucinate because your brain is so deprived of sleep "But nothing can change to ever make it right When you live in a nightmare It's written all over your face. " I remember that i was so ashamed of myself for being addicted to meth that I couldn't look at myself in the mirror. I shaved off my mohawk just so my hair didn't need to be combed, because i had to avoid my reflection. "And in a short time You're never the same again The distance is streamlined Between decision and defense: Distorient the senses Loss of identity No one to trust " I got addicted so fast i couldn't believe i truly was an addict, i swore it was all in my head. I wasn't myself when i was high, (loss of identity) i was angry and violent and couldn't control myself. As for no one to trust, I was completely paranoid, even around my friends. "Life runs through this trade I am no killer But I still hide my face In the coming days " Eventually I couldn't face anyone but another addict. I was ashamed of the bags under my eyes and I knew that I had dropped from 145 to 110 pounds. Ugly. Gross. "I wake up every morning From the same dream And then I kill it But you can't change the letters when the ink dries ? Ok, so I only really woke up once or twice a week, but through it all I kept a journal. I don't really remember writing in it, but i know i did (I have for about a year, before i got into meth), and i still have it. Its full of incoherent writing, wishes of death, and panic. Panic is the main emotion I get from my journal during the meth days. "I woke up on the sidewalk and everything just changed Now the lights are blinking but I can't see anything" That's pretty self- explanatory. With me, I had been awake for 5 days, and i was walking around downtown by the boys and girls club (lots of punks from my town chill there) smoking a cigarette and drinking a fifth of whiskey (i was only about 3 blocks from the cop station, meth makes you stupic like that), when i passed the fuck out, and my friends dragged me into a car and took me home, and I woke up two days later stuck to the bed in my own vomit. I had no idea what was going on. "Everything is falling apart: Crumpled paper Crushed tin cans Broken bottles Paper scraps " That was what my basement looked like. "We all look the same We all look the same But I am the killer" Everyone of the regulars in my basement did look the same, we were all a bunch of pale skinny punk rockers who smelled of liquor and cigarette smoke. Sunken eyes, pale skin, the same half frightened half angry, half depressed look on our faces (don't ask me where the third half came from). But i was the one who was killing me. No one else was fucking me up, it was just me. Finally, after four months of use i got off it, with the help of a preppy, of all people, and I'm doing a lot better now. Quitting was really hard. I remember one night there was a party next door while I was one the front porch puking and convulsing. I think i passed out. Not really sure. Stay off the heavy drugs, they'll take you faster than you think possible. -Sincerely, Maleficent |
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| Sex Pistols – My Way Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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i can clear up the Ritchie/Beverly thing becuase my English teacher gave me an assignment to do a report on sid vicious, because he thinks i look like him sometimes (mostly, i wear a leather jacket and combat boots everyday, and when i don't take the time to spike my hair in the morning it comes out looking like Sid's). Ok, here's what happened, he was born John Simon Ritchie in 1957. In the mid-60's his mother married a man who's last name was Beverly. The man was going to adopt sid, but he died less than a year after he got married. Hence, ur confusion on the subject |
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| Sex Pistols – My Way Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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i can clear up the Ritchie/Beverly thing becuase my English teacher gave me an assignment to do a report on sid vicious, because he thinks i look like him sometimes (mostly, i wear a leather jacket and combat boots everyday, and when i don't take the time to spike my hair in the morning it comes out looking like Sid's). Ok, here's what happened, he was born John Simon Ritchie in 1957. In the mid-60's his mother married a man who's last name was Beverly. The man was going to adopt sid, but he died less than a year after he got married. Hence, ur confusion on the subject |
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| Minor Threat – Straight Edge Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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i don't understand the straightedge movement. I mean, i think anyone who stands alone and says "I'm staying clean" is fuckin hardcore, but someone who needs a whole movement and a nice little symbol to do it is just there tryin to fit in... even though i quit using drugs and i've been sobre for a year you'll never hear me call myself straightedge. I can do it without wearing an X |
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| Minor Threat – Straight Edge Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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i don't understand the straightedge movement. I mean, i think anyone who stands alone and says "I'm staying clean" is fuckin hardcore, but someone who needs a whole movement and a nice little symbol to do it is just there tryin to fit in... even though i quit using drugs and i've been sobre for a year you'll never hear me call myself straightedge. I can do it without wearing an X |
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| Sex Pistols – Anarchy in the U.K. Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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You guys care too much about who was first, who was truest, all that bullshit... its what the Poseur Crew at my old school talked about. Its Punk Rock, I don't give a fuck who started it, and neither do the people who did start it. Its good music, thats all that matters |
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| Sex Pistols – Anarchy in the U.K. Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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You guys care too much about who was first, who was truest, all that bullshit... its what the Poseur Crew at my old school talked about. Its Punk Rock, I don't give a fuck who started it, and neither do the people who did start it. Its good music, thats all that matters |
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| Home Grown – I Love You, Not Lyrics | 23 years ago |
| Making love is something girls do when us guys are fucking them | |
| AFI – I Wanna Mohawk (But Mom Won't Let Me Get One) Lyrics | 23 years ago |
| haha....i was a pussy little mama's boy when i was 10. And now I'm a big boy, all grown up, and my mom still won't let me get a mohawk, so of course mine was 8 inches tall and my mother wouldn't talk ot me in public. But then i sheaved it cuz its time for something new.... i think I'll go with the Sid Vicious look. And Davey Havoc, I'm doin the same thing with my kids.... and when they're teenagers I don't care if they're punkers, but if they're preppies or jocks I'm sendin them to rehab for being stupid little cunts. | |
| Weezer – Tired Of Sex Lyrics | 23 years ago |
| i know what he's saying... i think empty sex is a boring ugly thing but i still continue to fuck without emotion.... its only good if there's some feeling behind it, not just an orgasm. | |
| Weezer – Tired Of Sex Lyrics | 23 years ago |
| i know what he's saying... i think empty sex is a boring ugly thing but i still continue to fuck without emotion.... its only good if there's some feeling behind it, not just an orgasm. | |
| NOFX – Straight Edge (Minor Threat cover) Lyrics | 23 years ago |
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what's up with all this sXe shit? y do u guys need a movement to not use drugs? I don't need a reason to use them. And yea... i'm pretty sure they're making fun of straight-edgers here... i mean.... they have Drugs Are Good, Mr. Jones, I wanna be an alcoholic... tons of good self-destruction songs |
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