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I heard this song for the very first time today, and immediately upon hearing it, I was brought back to my childhood. Im an adult but I was abused by my father throughout my childhood, I haven\'t spoken to him in years. \n\nThe sea (the child) said goodbye to the shore (mother) so the sun (father) wouldn\'t notice The seaweed that wrapped its arms around you \nI left home as soon as I possibly could without telling my father. My mother helped me leave.\n\nThe carpet on my cheek feels like the forest\nAnd I run through the tall trees with your hands chasing me\nThese lines strike me as depicting physical abuse, and even a runaway attempt, trying to escape father\'s grasp and control.\n\nThe books that I keep by my bed are full of your stories\nThat I drew up from a little dream of mine, a little nightmare of yours.\nThe first line to me means, "The things I remember the most are the lies you\'ve told me."\nAnd perhaps a daydream of telling someone about the abuse and being rescued.\n\nTo be asked to take this plunge, to forgive and forget\nAnd be the better man, to be a better man, to be a better man.\nMy father\'s side of the family have reached out many times to ask me to forgive him. \n\nSo love me mother, and love me father, and love my sister as well.\nAs it says. I have many younger siblings that went through the same thing. All a child ever wants is to be loved and feel safe.\n\nThe cat\'s silhouette, as big as a monster,\nIn this concrete jungle, with street lights hanging their heads.\nAs a child, even the silhouette of a cat can seem scary. A grown man with full control over you, your siblings, your mother? Where exactly could you go if you\'ve left when you\'ve only ever walked down your sidewalk?\n\nSo make all your last demands for I will forsake you\nAnd I\'ll meet your eyes for the very first time, for the very last.\nI\'ve been contemplating going to see him just to tell him exactly how I feel, and to tell him this is the last time he will ever see me. Maybe it would make me feel better.\n\nI met a man today and he smiled back at me\nNow there are thoughts like these that keep me on my feet,\nThat keep me on my feet.\nThis. My first thought was of my fiancé. He saved me in ways he may never know about. He and our friends, our family, in my worst time on this earth, they gave me a reason to live, to stay on my feet.\n\n\nMy father, in one of my few happy memories with him, introduced me to this band with King and Lionheart. I still cry when i listen to certain songs. I will never forgive him, but when I listen to this song, I feel more and more like that\'s okay. |
