| Billie Eilish – When I Was Older Lyrics | 6 years ago |
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So not a full on interpretation as I've only gleamed bits and pieces, and overall can't say what this song's about. But imagery of an open sea, I've learned is often a symbol of femininity. This shifts when she says she's underwater depicting being overwhelmed. "Paler than I've ever been," possibly being deathly afraid of something. "I'm on my back again" I've read as a couple of things. It could be one or the other or both. It could be that the speaker is down and troubled. Dreaming of a place where you and i are best of friends even after all this ends, can we pretend seems pretty straightforward to me. So something's happened here with this former best friend. The next portion with "see how far it bends before it breaks and back again," tells me that they're a pair always pushing boundaries. When I look at the whole picture with: "getting caught in the middle of it" being found in a situation where they pressed those aforementioned boundaries, The portion with memories and funeral pyre tells me she's trying to burn those memories simultaneously reliving them and trying to lay them to rest, someone who empathizes with the bad guys insinuating this friend can do or comprehend villanous deeds, while still seeing herself as the perpetrator by saying "But I'm the villain in my own eyes," I wonder if "I'm laying on my back again can be literal... As if this song is caught in a moment with this possible thing that complicates the friendship, a fight, or sex, or rape... And when she's dreaming of this place where they could still be best of friends, she blames herself for getting into this situation it's possible she's reminiscing before a fight, or taking herself out of her self if it's unwanted sex... But, I feel like there's more to this song I'm not seeing and would love to hear what else it could be, if i'm missing somethig, and if someone completely disagrees |
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