| Mika – I See You Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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It's been years since anyone commented on this but I had to give my thoughts after I was reminded of this song and listened it for the first time since high school. And a realization hit me: in my opinion this song is very much about an unrequited crush of a gay teen. Of course, these feelings are relatable to anyone who has experienced a crush like this regardless of sexual orientation! This song just really captured my feelings as a closeted lesbian crushing on straight girls in high school. Mika has come out as gay. And in this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5HFEwg6G810 he explains that the song is about how he felt in adolescence (and note the use of pronoun 'they'! The gender of the object of the affections is not defined probably because he wasn't out by then. But he doesn't pretend it's about a girl either.) The lyrics "I don't speak, you don't know me at all" are clearly about a secret, a secret deeper than just liking someone, the crush doesn't know at all that the person even could like someone of the same gender. "For fear of what you might do I say nothing but stare at you" and "You could be cruel to me Why go risking the way that I see you?" are not only about the risk of rejection. There is also the risk of facing homophobia from the person you love combined with the danger of being forcibly thrown out of the closet. And the idea of being treated like that, that your crush might think you are disgusting because you like them, is a risk too big to take even if you wanted to. Because after that, the way you see that person is ruined forever, and it can ruin you life too. So it's easier to stay quiet and avoid confronting the possibility that your crush could be a homophobe, and continue seeing only their good side. "And I'm waiting, I'm hating everyone." The people around you, all of them, create the closet you're in. And it makes you resent them and desperately wait for a time when you could finally be yourself freely. And so everyone around you creates the situation where you're can't confess your feelings. But still the feelings you have for the other person, even if they're tinted with sadness and pain and will never be confessed, are full of the sweetness and love of seeing the beauty in someone. |
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