| Chris Isaak – Wicked Game Lyrics | 8 years ago |
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In December 1995, at work, I met the Perfect "Wicked Games Girl", the girl any man can be extremely attracted to physically with the personality to match. The girl who is "The Black Widow". The one who draws men close to her. Just to destroy them. I intensely loved her at first glance, not lust, but pure love from my heart to hers. Very strange to me. Fortunately I was married then so I did not get involved. It wasn't very long until I saw right through her even more after the stories about her were all over the movie studio lot where we worked. I made it a point to avoid her to the point of looking the other way when we came face to face. Total avoidance. I knew exactly who she was and what her game was. In November 2004 she startled me while I was stooped down inspecting a machine. I worked in engineering. She put her hand on my shoulder giving me the most adoring look with her gorgeous .dark hypnotic eyes. She told me how much she admired me and wanted to talk later. I thought, Wow! I have not ever in my life seen a more gorgeous elegant lady than her. No one ever. . In September 2004 my wife of 11 years divorced me after I got her U.S. Citizenship. All she wanted was her citizenship and my house. After I fell for her deceit, I married her in 1993. Because of earlier painful relationships that I gave All to, I married this one. No connection No emotions A very cold and indifferent woman. I wanted kids so I figured "What the Heck" This woman won' t hurt me emotionally. She never did. The "Wicked Games" girl at work I will call "Maria". . We had many little conversations at work before we decided to do a work related Walk-a-thon in a nearby park on a Saturday morning. At the walk, the first thing she asked me was "are you married" I said I used to be. I said, How about you? She said yes. We walked and talked for 7 hours non stop. She told me how different I was compared to all the other men she had ever known.. I'm thinking, even women have good lines they give men. All of a sudden, towards the end of the walk something magical happened. Continuing to walk and talk we instantly became very emotionally connected to each other. All of her compliments and gracious thoughts about me were right from her heart. Neither of us have ever mentioned the word "Love" Another Wow! She still continued being "The Wicked Game Black Widow" to all those who deserved it. During the next 4 years, we had weeks and months when we did not talk to each other. One time it was 18 months between speaking. Very very powerful emotions between us. Little misunderstandings hurt us because there was no time or place to talk about them. One time after 2 months of not conversing, I, (painfully missing her) came to her department July 1 and I said to her, "Can We Talk" I was so distraught and she looked half dead. She said in a very sad no energy voice: Ok we can talk. She said next week. I just loved her so much I could hardly wait for July 5 On July 5, sitting in her car, we had a very serious emotional conversation (She on the edge of crying) told me she "just couldn't leave her husband" I, very tenderly told her I would never ask her to leave her husband. I said we can be friends. She,with tremendous emotion almost crying looked up at me and said "We can't be friends" then she looked down at her lap and almost cried. After some silence, I had to go back to work. I looked at her lovingly as I departed her car. There was bag on the floor of her car from Carl's Jr. from her earlier lunch. I told her I would dispose of it for her. She was going home, but she just sat there for a while before she left. I did not see her until December 3rd. when I was sent to her department on business. I kept her trash from Carl's Jr. I needed a part of her to hold on to. I still have it. I will keep it forever. During summer 2005 I purchased a magazine on Ebay from the day she was born. I had brought it to work with me that day to show a friend I worked with. Before I could show my friend, I was sent to her department for the first time in 5 months. She was very happy to see me. I did a slight adjustment on her computer and told her I had an old magazine for her. With great enthusiasm she said go get it. I got the magazine, she was really happy as we looked through it together. Suddenly, she put the magazine down on a shelf, put her arms around me and her head on my shoulder for a few moments of blissful silence. Then with her most beautiful eyes, looked into my eyes for another moment of blissful silence. She had to go back to work and so did I. She took off the next 5 months. On February 22, 2007 another sweet encounter as we saw each other in an office. She hugged me after I wished her "Happy Birthday" I left the studio in 2009 for a new profession. I told her my plans and she was very supportive. Sadly, I had to leave before I could say good bye. I saw her 2 days before I left not knowing I would leave that soon. I gave her on old penny for her collection. She was thrilled. We hugged each other for the last time. I could never call her at work or at home. 3 months later a friend told me how distraught she was when he mentioned my name. I sill hurt very much for this. This encounter with a "Wicked Games" woman ended not in hurt, but in tremendous emptiness and sadness because we cannot ever see each other again. There is also a great satisfaction of saying "I truly was loved and I truly did love a most deserving precious lady. I will Love her for all eternity. No other woman will ever compare. Not Ever. I started out writing this comment because this song is so true, so very true for men and women who fall into the trap of flings and affairs, Somebody will totally ruin their life and their family's There are a lot of women who intentionally do this to men for revenge. Other women like "Maria" do this to men to test them to see if a certain man is worth all of the wonderful things they have to give.. I believe additionally that Maria does this to find the real love she always dreamed of. Both of us found this Magical Real Love with each other and sadly we may never see each other again. I leave this comment section knowing I did experience real heartfelt love and Maria can know she found a man who will love her for all eternity. Attention all men. If you find a woman you think you could love, show her tenderness, kindness,and understanding in all things.Things that you may not understand. Don't push her, crowd her, and always be honest no matter how long it may take to win her heart. You will be greatly rewarded. There will be no need for "Wicked Games" I guess I wrote this long comment to show that experiencing eternal love can sometimes take years and years. I think of Maria every day for the honest emotion we shared. Extra Special Thoughts for Her Tomorrow. Her Birthday. |
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| Toni Braxton – Un-Break My Heart Lyrics | 8 years ago |
| A very beautiful, very painful song that totally connects me to the pain I caused a girl I worked with whom I shared great heart felt emotions. From the very second we met, 21 years ago, I have loved her more than words can ever say. She was in an unhappy committed marriage and I was single. Verbally, I could never share my tremendous feelings for her. I let actions speak louder. Her powerful feelings for me were sent to my heart by hugs and glances. In a sweet moment in 2009 we shared a hug and I told her I may be leaning for a new job. She was supportive. 2 days later I was gone. Could not call her at work or disrupt her home life with a call.. A friend I worked with called me 3 months later telling me how distraught she is Her Birthday is in 2 days. I cry every day | |
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