| Evanescence – Tourniquet Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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I'd like to take the song in a less literal sense and say it's about someone who is going through a very difficult time in their life; they feel as if they are emotionally bleeding and dying. Desperate for a lifeline, they call on God for help, and then feel guilty that they only think of Him in the darkest times. I used to listen to this song a lot when my family was in the process of moving; to me tearing me away from my home was like wounding my identity, and I used my faith as a "tourniquet" to make the whole terrifying situation more bearable. Then I wondered why I hadn't considered God's role in my life when I was relatively happy, but now that I was so sad and scared, I called on God to save me. |
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| Evanescence – My Last Breath Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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It's definitely about someone who's dying and is saying goodbye to a loved one. For me, it reminds me of the last time I saw my mother: "Hold onto me, love. You know I can't stay long. All I wanted to say is I love you and I'm not afraid." This could have been either of us speaking- her saying she couldn't stay alive for long but she wasn't afraid of death, or me saying that I couldn't stay visiting her in the nursing home for long but I wasn't afraid of living without her. "Can you hear me? Can you feel me in your arms?" She had a brain tumor and at this point could no longer speak or walk. I wondered if she was still conscious of what was happening around her, and if she knew I was there. "Holding my last breath safe inside myself"- she struggled with the tumor for a long time, and she said that sometimes she could've just drifted away, but knowing my brother and I needed her kept her going. She'd been holding her last breath for over five years. "Are all my thoughts of you?"- even now, it seems as if she is woven into every thought that I have. "Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight"- There was actually an end-of-the-world prophecy for the day I last saw her (May 15, 2015) and the day she died (May 19, 2015), hence the "rapture". In a way, the world did end- our relationship ended on the 15th and her life ended on the 19th. "I'll miss the winter"- when I was a child, we had an ongoing debate over whether winter or summer was better; she liked summer and I liked winter. This is her finally conceding that I was right. "I know you hear me. I can taste it in your tears"- my tears fell on her face as I lay there with her. "Closing your eyes to disappear"- I would go to sleep and dream of her, hoping that somehow she would be there when I woke up. Also, I would regress into my fantasy world (which she was the center of) to try and forget her death was real. "You pray your dreams will leave you here"- again, hoping that her death was all a nightmare, or hoping that my crippling fantasies would leave me be now that she was gone. "But still you wake and know the truth: no one's there"- waking up and realizing that she was actually gone "Calling me, calling me as you fade to black"- when I left the nursing home for the last time, and I faded in her mind. |
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| Evanescence – Lose Control Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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It may sound stupid, but this song reminds me of a story I wrote about a man who thinks his girlfriend is cheating on him and goes after her younger, more innocent friend to get revenge. The parts sung in those deep, sultry tones are the girlfriend's voice, and the parts sung in Amy Lee's normal voice are the young friend's voice. (They're so alike that they finish each other's sentences, which is how the man tries to justify his attraction to the younger girl by making her seem no different than his girlfriend.) "Can we play the game your way? Can I really lose control?"= The young girl's boyfriend is one of the guys that the older girl was cheating with, so she's also full of resentment and wants to get back at them. She's overwhelmed at the prospect of actually getting her revenge. Also, she's very innocent, so the idea of having an affair is bewildering to her. "Mary" refers to the older girl and "the lamb" is her boyfriend, but the line "If we play very quiet, my lamb, Mary never has to know" is actually the young girl recalling what the older guy said to her. So is "If I cut you down to a thing you can use, I fear there'd be nothing good left of you"; the man is saying to the young girl, "If I use you the way I want to, all your innocence will be gone and you'll be no better than my girlfriend." The "aaaaah"s at the end are the young girl screaming as the man attacks her, but eventually she breaks free and runs away (hence the fading out as she gets further away). |
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| Evanescence – Sick Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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When I first heard this song, I thought of a kid who's faking being sick because she's being bullied at school and wants an excuse not to go: "Embrace the silence... taken all that you wanted" You've beaten me down to nothing, so now I won't be there for you to pick on. "Hold on, little girl, the end is soon to come" She's about to graduate, but she still feels like a little child. She's reminding herself that her suffering will soon end after graduation. "We will not follow" She's done with following trends in the hopes that people will accept her. "They don't understand how sick we are of this bottomless pit of lies behind closed eyes" 'They' refers to her parents. She doesn't tell them about the bullying and even lies about her school life to try and hide her pain, so all of it is hidden behind her closed eyes when she goes to sleep at night. "Oceans between us" She's isolated, either physically or mentally, from anyone who could be considered a friend. Possibly she moved away from all her friends. "I can still taste the poison of every thought, every breath I wasted here" She feels her time at that school was wasted because she was so miserable, and she wants to forget it all, but the memory of those years will haunt her forever. "Someday you'll know the pain; someday the light will break through, and nothing you tell yourself will save us from the truth" To her bullies: Someday someone will treat you as badly as you treated me, and you'll realize how much you hurt me. Whatever justification you used for bullying me (I wasn't popular enough, wasn't pretty enough, you didn't like me, etc.) doesn't change what you did or make it any better. |
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| Evanescence – Missing Lyrics | 9 years ago |
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To me it's the soul of an aborted child speaking to her mother and her surviving younger sibling: "Barely conscious, you'll say to no one: isn't something missing?" When the mother dies, she'll think of her lost child and wish that she could be there in her final days. Maybe the mother is already dying/terminally ill. "Even though I'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me, not now" This is to the surviving sibling: even though I died so you could exist, you don't ever think of me, but you will. "I know what you do to yourself. Breathe deep and cry out" To the mother: I know how getting rid of me hurt you, but now that you're dying, you'll pine for me. "And if I sleep just to dream of you, I'll wake without you there." This is the voice of the living child after the mother has passed on; she dreams of her mother and her sibling, who are now together in Heaven, but she is left alone without either of them. |
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