| Plumb – Cut Lyrics | 10 years ago |
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How I take this song is that something happened, a traumatic experience of some kind and the easiest way to get through it was by turning off her emotions, she made the decision that if all she was going to feel was pain she'd rather not feel at all. When you decide to stop feeling, most of the time you feel empty, numb. But occasionally some of the pain slips out and no matter how much you cry it will always hurt to feel. When she says "I might seem crazy, or painfully shy" what she means is that she emotionally distances herself from others so she won't be hurt again. The 'scars' don't have to be physical. I identify very strongly with this song and I have never self harmed, but I have spent years emotionally numb because memories can be more painful than any blade. "these scars wouldn't be so hidden if you would just look me in the eye" "the only anaesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside" the 'anaesthetic' is not a relief from pain, but a relief from the cold emptiness she is feeling. It 'kills inside' because when she tries to feel all that is left is pain. "I do not want to die inside just to breathe in" is the same. Her only 'relief' from nothing is pain. After a while you begin to feel like a stranger to yourself. You spend so much time and energy not feeling that you forget how to feel, how to be anything but empty. This song is all about looking in the mirror and seeing a stranger, after losing yourself to emptiness the only thing left to feel is the pain you were trying to avoid in the first place. |
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