| Eminem – Love The Way You Lie (feat. Rihanna) Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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I share your pain. I do not doubt the depth of his love for me neither, yet he will never understand the depth of my love for him. He is blinded by anger, frustruction and hurt cos I left him twice. Out of love, out of anger, out of fatigue, out of love and freedom for both of our souls.. |
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| Pink – Try Lyrics | 11 years ago |
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It's funny how I have been hooked to this song from the moment I heard it. A year ago. Without even realising the lyrics to it, I just love the beat to it. It evokes extreme emotions from deep within and often brings tears which were supressed many a times. Relating to another area of my life at the time. Tonight, a year later, I looked up the lyrics and it is an apt description to the situation I just lived through. I was entangled in a destructive relationship for almost two years. It was filled with passion, fun, lies, deceit and a whirlpool of emotions. I tried to end it almost monthly, yet we got back together again and again. The act of staying together was easier than the act of seperating, as it involved alot of emotional stress, physical fatigue and mental space, for me. After two years I left. However, neither of us could let go. We kept in touch / long distance for almost six months, and reunited once more, continuing the long distance effect. Six months further, we moved in together. Two months later, I left once more. Now I am experiencing the lyrics of this song. Which I believe that this was initially suffered by the other a year ago, when I initially departed. There is no trust in the relationship. No communication. One often wondered what the other was doing, messages sufficed not in answering the much sought questions, fuelled by insecurites and anxieties of the heart. Yet one was too scared to question the other in person, lest it led to the unwanted reality; lies, deceit, betrayal, cheat, the hurt and pain which followed suit. One chose to live in the world of lies, to escape into the world of denial. Pretending all is fine. As time went on, the fights turned into verbal abuse, into violent physical aggression, to spiteful words coupled with extreme anger, frustration, and finally, hatred. So the leaver, often takes a break from the fight, desperatley hoping for some peace and normality to be restored. Yet when away from each other, the other would feel extremely lonely and badly needed the other to come back. Once back in each other's space, this viscious cycle of violence, aggression, betrayal, cheating, deceits, lies, hatred, anger, contempt, spite, would all return. Where was the love? Love turned into hate. One was too broken and damaged when the leaver left for the first time. Both have thorns, pierced too deeply in the heart, that even love cannot detox such a toxic relationship. Today, a year later, I forgave us both. I have no more anger, hatred. Just sadness. Sad how I have managed to turn the other into the me, one year ago. The other, is one year behind, still suffers what I went through. I hope peace, love and sweetness will befall the other one day, when real issues and affairs of the heart have been confronted and dealt with, so no more taking out all personal issues on the relationship, on either party. I hope peace will be restored |
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