| A Great Big World – Say Something Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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Librarygirl, the pain we share of giving so much of ourselves to help a long-term partner with an addiction and depression issues eventually takes in toll. You want to have a 'win' but each failed attempt slowly eats at your hope for change ever going to occur. At other times, you see a minor change and joy is built up inside but as one reverts back to old ways your inspiration plummets once again. After thirteen and half years of 'ups and 'downs' with my partner; after countless times of hearing him say "We'd be happier if we went our own separate ways!"; and enduring the aftermath of emotional and verbally abuse from a night's indulging; I am 'giving up'. My personal 'toll' is that I feel I must leave now or completely lose the person I once was. I am in the early stages of separating our entangled lives. The responsibility falls on my plate as he's too busy with work and having fun in his spare time. No, it's not sour grape!. Got to get it sorted; avoid dwelling too much on the past; and self motivate myself with thoughts of a struggle-free life ahead. Wishing you a bright and fulfilling life ahead. K. |
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