| John Mayer – Tracing Lyrics | 7 years ago |
| The first time I’d heard this song was almost seven years ago, on a cold March day. My boyfriend and I were lying in bed all day (we worked overnights at Target at the time) and we weren’t talking. There was so much tension in the room, for hours. Now, I’d just lost my virginity to him about four months prior, and he was my first love. I had just turned 19, and I had told him I loved him about a month in - I didn’t get it back. I’d spooked him, but at the time... I just knew I loved him and I’d never felt that before, never said it to anyone. I don’t think he really believed me when I said it. He was always on the edge, ready to fly away. What can I say, life had beaten him down. He wasn’t ready to give me what I needed, and he definitely didn’t think I could give him what he needed, especially when he couldn’t figured out what that was. So he played this song the day before - or day of, I don’t remember - he broke my heart to pieces for the first time. It’s such a terrible memory, but from the beginning I picked up on the fact that he was one of those people who didn’t open up by telling you things most of the time. You had to be observant - he lets pieces of him show through the lyrics of the songs he listens to. Listening to this song was so hard after, but hey, I’m a masochist. We got back together, then continued the roller coaster for over two more years until I just couldn’t take it anymore and walked away. Throughout that time, he’d realized I wasn’t fooling around when I told him I loved him, but he still could never find it within himself to say it back to me. I continued to listen to this song after we broke up and after I moved back to my home state six months later, and I eventually was able to listen to this song with no more pain. After all, John Mayer was like the soundtrack to our relationship - Slow Dancing In A Burning Room, St. Patrick’s Day, Edge of Desire, etc, and we both loved his music. Eventually, though I moved on with others, other songs came to describe us over the next three and a half years, I think - Comfortable, Split Screen Sadness, and, eventually, Back to You. And it took him long enough, but he has been telling me he loves me every single day for the last six months (but we came back into each other’s life a year ago and gradually came to the decision that we could really work this time)... I mean, I’m still 600 miles away until December, then we finally will be getting a place together (by then it will have been eight years... DAMN). I take this song for what it is and what it represents and even though it can be painful to be on the receiving end, it’s a damn good song. But he’s not lying when he’s saying ‘strong moves slow’. | |
| William Fitzsimmons – I Don't Feel It Anymore Lyrics | 11 years ago |
| This song reminds me of my first love who had his own back story long before he met me. I fell deeply for him and he hurt me by ignoring me and being rude to me. We'd go weeks without seeing each other and, like the inexperienced and naïve girl that I was, I thought he'd someday love me back and be who I thought I wanted him to be. This went on for years and he hurt me worse and worse (never physically), then would regret it and pull me back in until I finally couldn't take anymore. He told me at my twentieth birthday party, with a smile on his face, that he felt nothing for me and proceeded to buy a girl attending my party drink after drink, flirting with her for the week leading up and texting her - I didn't know he had a cell phone. I took him back a few months after that and we continued our roller coaster relationship for another year and a half til I finally got off the ride. Made out with a good friend of mine one night - who I coincidentally met through my ex - and now this guy treats me good and has helped me not to take back my first love when he once again realized he lost me, this last time for good. I came to the conclusion that he had his own problems he needed to sort out within himself and I ultimately couldn't save him because I just ended up needing saving myself. | |
| Rob Thomas – Her Diamonds Lyrics | 11 years ago |
| I love this song simply because his love for this woman is just so obviously pure, absolute, and completely selfless. That alone is powerful and inspiring | |
| John Mayer – Heartbreak Warfare Lyrics | 11 years ago |
| I don't think this is a breakup song at all. It's about two completely different people who love each other fiercely but can't ever seem to find middle ground. They fight constantly - maybe he's more low key about his love for her, being a more laid back person, and she wants more, she wants a declaration and he doesn't understand that. So the only time she ever gets to see raw emotion from him, to get him to show her how passionate he is about her is to start fighting with him. Believe it or not, that's how some couples are. This is how my boyfriend and I are. He loves me, this I know without a doubt, but he doesn't say it often. He doesn't shout it from rooftops, he isn't overly affectionate for all our friends to see (most of the time). But you ask any of our friends, all who have known him much longer than I have, and they'll tell you he and I are meant to be (due to the fact that in his 24 years on this earth, I'm the first girl to ever get an actual relationship from him instead of a hookup so they've never seen this side of him before). He knows that every time I drink I will say everything on my mind and I can say the craziest shit to him, push him to the very edge - sadly for him, I sometimes do this sober, too - but at the end of the night, I don't even have to say a word, just come back in his room and cuddle with him and we'll just both start laughing while I have tears in my eyes still. And despite dealing with me, do you think he's ever once told me he wanted to break up? Nope. He's done a complete 180 from the person he was before we became a couple. I'm just trying to learn how to accept that he expresses shit differently - or at least trying to learn how to apply this knowledge without feeling rejected when I don't get a mushy text back. But really, this song reminds me of us. Our explosive fights that we still have though we now live 700 miles away from each other til he comes to get me and bring me back to NY at the end of the summer. And we still have yet to break up for more than thirty minutes lol. But yeah, I hope this gives y'all another perspective on this amazing song. Not in any way comparing my relationship to The Notebook, but I'm sure most of you know how Allie & Noah are in the movie. There's a good example. | |
| Missy Higgins – Where I Stood Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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My best friend went through this and talking to her about her first love put this in perspective for me, because I couldn't get it completely before. She had a very big crush on this guy throughout high school. At the time, they lived down the street from each other. A few months after graduation, she finally finds the courage to talk to him... and they end up falling in love and being together for years. She was also his first love. Though he's her first love, she's had more experience than him - before him and after. He wasn't what he'd made himself out to be, in order to impress others. Over time, she found that she didn't like his real personality or the TV shows he liked or his thought process. But she was already in love and attached to him. They argued a lot until finally, she broke up with him. He was shattered. Now that all is said and done, she looks back and realizes a lot of it was her fault, but the fact remains that she does not like his personality. She still loves him and always will and will always be there for him, but she said, "There is some girl out there who wants him exactly like he is. I have to step aside and let him go so he can find her." It will bother her to see him with someone else, but no matter how many years and memories they have between them, she does not love him as much as the girl he's meant to be with will, who will cherish the flaws that she herself did not like. And she herself wants to discover herself and find her own identity, which she was unable to do being with him. |
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