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When he says he has his life lined up on the mirror, and not to blow it. He could be talking about blowing lines of coke on the mirror, and maybe why he dont know weather he is coming, maybe he is too high. I dont think so thou. I think he is under alot of pressure bc ppl expect alot from him, he expects alot from him. Its why he is talking to, almost yelling, demanding, himself not to blow it. Versus is about his rise and fall. I dont even know it has to be about being a famous artist, or celebirty. I just think he has disappointed ppl before, but mostly himself. I think he is his own biggest critic, bc he knows he is capable of doing great things. So he has these talks with himself, and prob always has. Weather in good or bad times, he needs to face himself first, and come to terms with it. Rise or fall, disappointment(shame,guilt,lies), or satisfaction, knowing he stayed focused, on track, didnt self sabbotage, get lazy, or let fear get in his way. So i dont think it is hard at all for him to look in the mirror. Face it we all have too, and maybe he wants too be able to like who he is, who he has to see everyday, and live with, live as. He says rise and fall it has been his only friend. So even in the bad he needs to see himself, talk to himself, yell at himself, maybe sort things out with himself until, he can accept, come to terms, learn, or maybe even pat himself on the back, bc maybe he tried his hardest, and did the best he could. In times of rise maybe he needs to just tell himself, he knew he could do it, lets go, keep it up, yeah baby, be proud of his reflection, smile, and like who he sees. He says the scars are still there though, even in them times. So i think he is humble, and dont need to humble himself even in them times. Sounds like it took alot of pain, suffering, loss, judgement, disappointments, made by him, and others. He is probably grateful, and so he does not get ahead of himself. He looks like his dad now. Idk if that is a good thing, a bad thing, or maybe he is just getting older. He is happy his mom is smiling. So as self centered as it sounds. I dont think he is. I think he is just a very honest person with himself, if not with himself in the beginning, or everyone else. He would not even think twice of lying, not even to himself, if he was not a human capable of real emotions. I think he just chooses, not too live ignorantly bliss, too his misfortunes, disappointments, mistakes, hurts, lies, denial, and others as well. He pats himself on the back, when he is lucky, worked hard, accomplished, blessed, did great, and knows who he is, he has guided, and supported, himself, with many others i am sure. We are our own worst enemy, critic, judge. He is human, and he knows himself. Throu suffering, pain, indifference, denial, lies, guilt, shame, sorrow, tears, and throu joy, celebrations, laughter, hard work, proud moments, fame, praise, approval, support, fortune. So with all that, he manages not to get swept away, in the fame, fortune, fans, groupies, other peoples problems, talking shit, bout who is more ghetto than who, or who is better than who. He does not live ignorantly bliss, he dont ignore his problems, or who he is was, wants to be. He still checks in with himself making sure, he is not losing touch, staying humble, proud, person he knows he is. He keeps himself in check, humble, decent, and in doing so. He can look in the mirror, good/bad, and know he will be okay, make it through. He knows what it takes to change, what he dont like, and accept what he cant. In a way he kinda tortures himself, but has too maybe to stay where, and who he needs to be. We can work, with 100,000 ppl, be surrounded by hundreds everyday, live with a dozen, lie next too someone every night, but all that wont matter at the end of the day, when its quiet. Bc all our distractions will be gone, then we will only have ourselves, and all our bliss will be gone. So weather it be a good thing he talks to himself, or looks in the mirror. I dont know, but for me it is. He tries hard to stay in touch, too not ignore his problems, bc he knows denial will catch up too us all, unless we have no emotions. He sees the lies, guilt, shame, but is dealing with it:) |
