| The Tea Party – The Messenger Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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This song is one that touched me and never stopped. It seems to be the story of my wife. Hurt, betrayed, out of hope almost. defensive and hidden away. Then, she met me. And opened her heart and we embraced. To put it one way also...she said 'please be real. if you're not real, then please kill me painlessly.' But, that one more chance, that hope that maybe this time, the person they found just might be as they showed themselves to be. it is...haunting. |
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| The Tea Party – Heaven Coming Down Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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It's...oddly, one of a few songs that led me through one of the worst times of my life. And, from a perspective of someone who could be thought of as a 'fallen' angel, it makes such utter perfect sense. Changing your life, or at least the hope of trying to. Letting go. Stopping trying to be a human and be what you truly are. The potential promise of the intollerable changing, leaving you...confused, alone, your fate cast aside from what was. To a freedom that in truth would terrify most who touch it. Just one more day. then another just one more day. one foot in front of the other, one more moment where you keep your head above the water. But, that's just the perspective of a crazygirl. ^_^ |
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| VNV Nation – Darkangel Lyrics | 13 years ago |
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Firstly, I'm an angel. A dark one at that. It doesn't matter if you believe or not, or simply think I'm a crazy girl. I'm Eisheth, in particular. As such a being, I can give an interpretation of what it means. Perhaps it is meaningful, perhaps not. It is, after all, just an interpretation of what another has said, from the perspective of one who views them as such. Firstly, dark does not mean evil. Evil and good are lies. Simple lies that one tells a small child so they can understand larger things, but in the end to be discarded as one grows and discovers more accurate ways of describing situations. Secondly, an angel is also known by other names in various places. And, now with the breakdown of the segments of what was said. In your dream you see me clear I have no restraint, no fear Powerless I watched from faces I'd assumed. My purpose set. My will defined. Caress the air. Embrace the skies. Escape the sorrow and restraint of mortal cities. I am a being of dreams. When laying next to another, I've had many long conversations while with one foot in the dreaming. If one is there, and looks about, one can see what other are, clearly without the interruption of ones eyes. (to quote yoda: luminous beings are we, not this crude matter.) I lack fear, or restraint as well. One does. If one can let go of all fear, inclusive of the one of 'death', then one is free. But restraint... Incarnation upon this world comes with such restraints. An angel...to begin with, one has no will. as a created being, one has a purpose and no free will. But, to fly is to be free also. If one were able to release ones incarnation to this world, then one may escape such restraints, even if for a time. Give me time I will be clear. Given time you'll understand What possesses me to right what you have suffered. I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war. To the darkened skies once more and ever onward. How often does one truly think about things? the world around them, the people around them, even contemplate why you do what you do, every day, from moment to moment? Give time to this, as with all things. You will understand. you will see clearly things, perhaps. Most angels and the like, detest this world for the beings within it. Humans. Who fight and hurt and rip at another. Suffering is a large part of this world. Some think that perhaps the only way to end it would be to end the beings who have such. Perhaps it would be a mercy. Perhaps instead they choose to war upon the things which cause such. To be an angel, is to have a certain aspect of peace. So many years I stood among the thoughts and tears of those I served. Among my own I was alone through my own doing. All the years I walked unknown behind the faces I assumed. Powerless to clear your mind of what you'd suffered Lifetime after lifetime, over and over around one goes. To serve those around you to lessen suffering, then to go back around other angels? There is a lack of understanding and comprehension. To experience is to fall, which is mentioned later. Fall to this earth. But not banishment. We come here of our own desires...which makes angels who do, seprate from those. I 'fell' from asking a question. 'why'. And in that moment, gained a will. Each time around the wheel, another face. Yet, suffering continues, the holding to the suffering of the past. Without letting go of that, there is no enlightenment, no progression. Only the same suffering, passed on to another and another. There is no faith in which to hide. Even truth is filled with lies. Doubting angels fall to walk among the living. I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war. To the darkened skies once more and ever onward Faith, blind hope that something is real. Once you see and know things, it cannot exist. As I said earlier, 'truth' of good and evil, is a lie. Doubt. Questioning. And a desire to walk here, to try to help others here. Even though, to do so is to suffer yourself as well. I'd only come here seeking peace. I'd only come here seeking me. It seems I came to leave Peace here, is hard to find. Does this world, contain that which makes you? In the end, everyone leaves. And, if you find peace and yourself...then you are also ready to leave this world. If my words intrigue you, then you may find more interest of note, in the teachings of the buddha. If this has upset you, then contemplate the words of puck: If we shadows have offended, then think but this and all is mended, that you have but slumbered here, while these visions have appeared. After all, I'm just a crazy girl who thinks she's an angel. |
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