| Garbage – Bleed Like Me Lyrics | 13 years ago |
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Lots of people misunderstand what self harm is. Some posters have the truth of it, that it varies from person to person. children sometimes do it for attention when even negative attention is welcomed. Men and Women (adults) tend to do it for very different reasons, even with otherwise fairly healthy psyches. Then there are a whole range of mental illnesses that either lend to self harmful behavior, or are in themselves self harmful. For me, I suffered what I know now to have been a nervous breakdown after graduating high school just after the turn of the century. many things happened all at once, which left me with a fragile sense of self-identity. Aside from the physical scars that (10 years later) have only just begun to fade, I also destroyed my relationships with many of my closest friends of the day, and with my immediate family. You may think "what were you trying to achieve by doing that?" but that's just it, I was fighting to survive and make sense of the world with no reference point. I did the best I could figure out, which was incredibly destructive to me, but still was a way to survive and relate. I am fortunate to have had a very loving friend who stayed with me through the crazy, and who helped me when nobody else was trying or knew how to try. With her help, and eventually my own ability to help myself through therapy and Rx drugs and counseling, those days are largely behind me. Before you let yourself judge somebody you see or know that has some of the obvious signs of self harm, try and be compassionate. you don't have to talk to them or make them your best friend, just try not to sneer. maybe, if you feel you can, wish them a nice day. It seems small, but little things like that can save somebody's life. |
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| Jimmy Eat World – Night Drive Lyrics | 13 years ago |
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A combination of things really: first of all, I think it is pretty clear that the song is reflective and narrative. I only kind of got the feeling that so many picked up on, that the song is about love per say. Having been in a relationship so to speak, like what this song says to me, it brings to mind a lot of things, mostly unpleasant. so here goes: Lay back baby and we'll do this right There's blankets in back we can use I'll start the car, but we'll stay in park The cold can kill us before fumes this is obviously about finding a dark/secluded place to park to have sex. This kind of sex is not usually terribly romantic, or even very sexy, as in my experience it has been more about misguided attempts at affection between two lonely/desperate parties. This kind of sex usually denotes a lack of self-respect on the part of one or both individuals. "Now’s the right time for a good song Get something to say what I can’t Do you feel bad, like I feel bad? Pour us a road, we’ll both drink and drive " This part is somewhat about the time after the deed is done. He does not know what he should say, or what he even wants to say. the need for music as a conversation filler, and a mode of expression is because he does not know how to feel about it. he feels guilt for what they have done, even though part of him likes it how it was. he is hoping she feels the same. perhaps he feels guild for wanting to do it again some time? Kiss me with your cherry lipstick Never wash you off my face Hit me I can take your cheap shot Leave you with the love we made Perhaps she was a virgin when they had their tryst. He looks back fondly on the whole thing, even though there is also regret. Perhaps she got angry with him for not caring more or knowing how to be with her how she needs (the cheap shots) and he wants to leave or have her leave. Come alive on the driver's side So close I taste your breath Your lips go dry, but they're sweet inside I must go right to your head It'd be easy if you'd get that But three fingers point back to you We could stay here Stay out all night No one will know us and the moonlight Even though there is guilt on the part of both parties, they cannot resist meeting like this. perhaps, instead of going to the back seat, they have sex in the driver's seat, maybe even while driving? literally she is so close to him that he can taste her breath (i know, too literal maybe? but it does happen) I always felt like the "lips" he mentions going dry speaks to her nethers, more than the lips on her face, but he comments on how she tastes inside (sweet) 'wine must go right to her head' perhaps they drink together so they can stand themselves after they have their guilty pleasure (not just a euphemism, but also literally their relationship makes them both feel guilty). "three fingers point it back to you" speaks to her perhaps liking it that way (without being too graphic...) he might not like doing that in that way, but he does it for her. Even though they maybe don't get along that well in the day, he wishes they got along better and does not want her to go (we could stay out all night) because things seem simple in that moment. I set my watch by street side clock A needle in echo groove You pierce my heart like a willing arm Your ticking makes my blood move There's no way out this fade out Be Happy to get what you do Make him notice with both fists 'Cause quitting alone will never get you dry He tries not to keep track of time when he is with her because he does not want to think about what else he should be doing instead of being with her, and at the same time he does not want it to end. He falls in love with her, but more like she is a drug that helps him get by, than in a healthy way (like an addict with a willing arm, ready to be injected with the drug) There's no way out of their relationship that does not involve heart break and growing apart (the fade out), and he is trying to convince her and himself that they should be happy for what they did have, however little it might have been. "make him notice with both fists" I always kind of thought went along with the "three fingers pointed back to you" as far as being a sexual act. the alternative is that she gets furious with him for not noticing her and takes a swing at him. "quitting alone will never get you dry" refers to him thinking they both need to not want to be together, because if one party wants to stay, the emotional wound will never heal right. (getting dry refers to beating the addiction that they seem to have for one another) Give Me Everything You've Got Now I don't feel a single thing Drag me out into the cold rain Let it hover over m He wants her to be angry with him for how they were together, perhaps he has decided that the only way she will want to be apart is if she hates him. he tricks himself into believing he feels nothing for her or about their relationship. even if she were to throw him out into the cold, he still could not feel any more or less than what he feels in that last moment. I think most people can relate on some level or other to the feelings in this song, if they feel it reflects happily on a past memory, or dredges up things that might be better be left not thought of. For me, it reminds me of a pretty dark part of my early 20's and reigniting a flame with a past ex with whom i should have never been in the first place. as I mention in my understanding of this, the whole nature of that relationship was me being lonely and wounded, and her perhaps caring for me more than i was able to return. i felt guilt about it, but would not stop myself. maybe having that broken, dark, heartless kind of love is all i could do back then, and maybe what i was asking for is not what i needed at that point, but I don't think I knew how to ask for what I needed, or even knew what it was I actually did need. so that is what this song (actually the whole album Futures) reminds me of. Futures was not even out during the happenings I mentioned, but upon listening, the whole thing spoke fairly directly to that period in my life (not just that relationship) haha I was emo. |
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