| Blind Melon – I Wonder Lyrics | 13 years ago |
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I'm confused - the comments seem to be about the right song, but the lyrics above are for the song "Soak in the Sin." here are the proper lyrics: I wonder Lyrics Album: Blind Melon All alone in the broadening skies Under the every night I will lie Scratching claw and grip the rails Every day is my living hell Oh God you know I've tried I know how hard I tried and oh I tried Ooh Hey I'd like to daze away to a Place like no one has known In a state of mind I could call mine That only I could own Where I could hum a tune anytime I choose And then there is no such thing as time Where I can feel no pain just calm and sane What a place for one to find Now you see I'm watching everything I do And they're watching everything I say So they will leave me be Whoa, leave me be Why am I even here? I wonder You leave me wondering You leave me wondering Won't you stop watching me I said they're watching me, watching me, watching me Now in my corner I got the ceiling in my eyes Arms holding up my knees And rocking back and forth my life I didn't mean to feel this way When I walked into the door, Lord Then they ripped away my memories And I cant remember who I was before. Now they're watching everything I do And they're watching everything I say So they will leave me be Whoa, leave me be And I only wanted to be 16 And free And I wonder -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my two cents on "I Wonder": Seems like a story about a teenager in a psychiatric facility. He's depressed, but feels victimized by his incarceration, and he can't figure out why he's being punished for thinking and feeling things that simply come naturally to him. He simply tries to keep to himself but the staff are always watching him, examining him for signs that he's either becoming the person that they want him to be, a person that they're molding into their idea of a "sane" person after breaking him down through behavior modification, pschotropic medications and/or electrconvulsive therapy that screws wi/ his self image and recall ability. All he ever wanted was to be a teenager that was free to deal with his problems in his own way as he grows and develops without being locked away like a rhesus monkey in a research lab. |
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| Puscifer – Polar Bear Lyrics | 13 years ago |
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The first time I heard this, I was positive it was in reference to someone who had just begun to re-develop physical addiction to heroin or another injectable opiate. from Urban Dictionary: "chipping: To occaisonally or recreationally use heroin without becoming trully addicted. I've been chipping for years, but I'm lucky I've never got hooked and had to experience withdrawl symptoms. " "Icicle island" refers to piles of used syringes in the place the subject shoots up. "Howling alone, the lies and the bone Hoping to fade and disappear into the white" refers to the desperation and motivations behind getting to the point where the subject feels it necessary to start shooting up again, "the bone" I interpret as day to day pain and fatigue, "disappear into the white" is to get high on "china white" which is either fentanyl - an extremely powerful sythetic pharmaceutical opiate - or it can also be in reference to high quality, high potency heroin in lighter brown or white powder form as opposed black tar. in the second stanza, the first person, the "I," can either refer to a "friend" who provides the drug, or abstractly, the subconscious voice given to the drug by the subject of the song, the "you." The moat of icy water can either refer to the barrier around the self-imposed isolation that the addict creates around themselves due to the stigma and shame of being an addict and the lies and deceptions they use to score, get money, and keep those that care about the addict oblivious to their situation, or it could refer to the chills and sweating that announce a coming wave of dope sickness (opiate withdrawal). "No end in sight save your own I know that look of fear, I'm well-aware" the first line refers to the mental place an addict arives at once they realize that they're physically hooked again - they realize they'll either have to go through withdrawal (the pain of death,) or suicide in order to get out of the vicious cycle of maintaining their habit. The second line goes back to the voice of either the drug itself or the "friend" & dealer, that now knows they've got their hooks in the subject again, and the last line is of the stanza - "I'll be there," is the only voice of solace the subject can hear at this point. It placates them, letting them know that they'll always have the drug to fall back on to feel better, but the tone of the song and the repetition of the line imply that it just compounds that self imposed isolation on their icicle island by widening the moat. now the "polar bear" basically exists the cold reality of their situation (the icy water) with occasional respites of the island (the relief that the drugs provide.) Hoping to fade and disappear into the white - hoping that they won't ever retun from the respite provided by the high. I don't mean to down-play the interpretations of those that saw the metaphor of deression here, as depression is certainly a regular emotion experienced by addicts, I just think this song was written with a more specific set of circumstances in mind. The words are too specifically chosen for it to be anything else, IMHO. |
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