| The Smashing Pumpkins – Disarm Lyrics | 13 years ago |
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I used to be obsessed with Smashing Pumpkins when I was in my teens and SP was the first concert I ever attended. I don't have a source but I do remember reading about this song years and years ago and Billy's commentary added so much more meaning to the song. I don't know where I read it or how accurate it is but the lyrics do seem to support it. As I recall, Billy's childhood was not ideal and he lived in an abusive home. "Disarm you with a smile" refers to Billy's attempt to disarm his parents' abuse by smiling thereby keeping everyone happy and reducing the chance of conflict/violence. "I used to be a little boy. So old in my shoes" is referring to Billy having to grow up too soon which is typical in abusive homes. Children become adults long before they should have to. "The killer in me is the killer in you" refers to Billy contemplating a vicious & violent retaliation towards his parents while they slept but recognizing that the concept of violence to solve issues is what his parents have taught him through their abusive behavior. He sees that the violent thoughts he observed were only created as a result of poor parenting. If he hurt his parents, he'd continue the cycle and nothing would improve. Billy chose to break the cycle which can be seen in the lyrics "what I choose is my choice" or "what I choose is my voice." A beautiful song despite the sad story behind it. |
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