| Mew – She Came Home For Christmas Lyrics | 12 years ago |
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I connect to this song in so many ways. This is long, bare with it. Don't touch her there She's blindfolded (I was raped while I was asleep by my boyfriend of six months.) She remembers on the bus Into my heart, don't remember (I forgave him..but as I thought on all the good times and how much I felt like I loved him, I could never forget what he’d done.) Like you left us, without notice (By raping me he had turned into a completely different person in my eyes — and it hurt me so badly to lose the person I thought I had. I blamed him for doing something so terrible so randomly.) Now you've come back Like you left us, like you owe us Into my heart (He fought for our relationship so hard after that I gradually began to think it would be okay, that I needed him. He’d convinced me it wasn’t him that had done it, and that it was his duty to show me that. And I bought it. As fucked up as it is.) (Chorus) It's not me! It can't be! It's not you! (Putting the blame of the failure of our relationship on everyone else, my family, the distance, my depression, my friends, his lack of friends. Not allowing the possibility of one of us, or both of us, being to blame. The thought of whatever we had ending was too much.) I can't do what i do if it's you! This is not happening (Him being unable to grasp the situation when I broke up with him, constantly saying that he needed me and that this wasn’t ‘us’ and we could ‘fix it’.) Don't touch her there She told me She remembers how it felt Into my heart, don't remember Like you left us, without notice (Chorus) Come home, Come home (We were in a long distance relationship, as I went away to college and he stayed home. We would fantasize about me dropping out and coming home.) (Chorus) It's not me! It can't be! It's not you! I cant' do what I do if we're through This is not happening Don't touch her there He watched her She knew his look from behind (He would stare at me during our fights. Never yelling. Just intense staring. And it seemed like there was no emotion behind his eyes when he’d do this. After awhile I just grew used to it and notice right away when that look would come across his face. I came up with mechanisms to deal with it after a handful of times that it had happened.) When she came home for christmas This is not happening (When I’ve been back home on break, he begs to see me. And to be honest, I want to see him. But then I get there, and it doesn’t feel right on any level. I refuse to believe that everything has failed so epically. It means choosing to ignore the real possibility of something happening between two people that is irreversible.) Thanks for reading, this song connects with me on so many levels. I still can’t believe it happened. “This is not happening.” |
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