| Art of Dying – Inside It's Raining Lyrics | 14 years ago |
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I have been diagnosed with a dis-associative disorder called Depersonalization. It's very hard to explain depersonalization, but the best why I can attempt to is to say that it's like watching yourself in a movie. You don't know what you're doing but you do it anyways. Your concept of reality is very poor and you have no control over your identity. When it boils down to it, you don't know who is staring in the mirror. When you look inside to see you are, it's almost as if it's raining. It's hard to get close to someone because you don't know who you are giving them and you don't know who they are. "I'm scared to me because I look like you. I don't want to be somebody I never knew. My idea is of a person dealing with similar disturbances. Someone who has tried so hard to get control of their sickness that the only way they can make it go away is to end it all. "I found my only out, so just forget about talking me down I'll put this fire out and stop this burning." If you couldn't live with yourself because of the pain that you go through and put your loved ones through, why go on? |
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