| Rob Dougan – I'm Not Driving Anymore Lyrics | 14 years ago |
| pst left me for dead is probably more apt to describe how others would paint the picture =P | |
| Rob Dougan – I'm Not Driving Anymore Lyrics | 14 years ago |
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In loving memory of Nick D Goodey I am sorry if this interpretation is personal But I never had a say in the funeral or what happened to the ashes. People hated me and my guilt was strong. This is my little anonymous corner of the web to say I am so sorry Nick. For me this song is quite simply what happened to our relationship He died a few nights after I told him I was leaving. I was a young mother and I was tired of saving him. I was tired of the visions I saw. I knew he would die this way. He had nightmares of wheels chasing him. I laughed when he first told me his worst nightmare.. a rubber tyre chasing him down a hill ! It all made sense though in retrospect. In our arguements I would always see a flash of his death before my eyes. I always saw he was on a bike even during the times he didn't own one.. always saw the truck, the dark of night and the drizzling rain. I didn't really know that it was myself who would drive him to this. I just thought I was a sick person having a terrible bad thought. I was just so tired. I was tired of saving him and when i gave up, he died. People knew the nitty gritty, that i was weak and i confessed to an affair as an excuse to get out and so I was the scapegoat. I had young kids. I moved a state away I couldnt afford to break down or to mourn. my guilt never let me mourn so i am finally allowing myself to mourn and say i am sorry Nick. and thankyou, for looking out for me I know you are the reason i havent crashed yet. Dont worry .. time to grow up.. i wont take it for granted anymore. no more late night crazy driving. time to move on. My kids still need me after all I am their only living parent. you need your rest too. Aye its a powerful song. It always reminds me exactely how Nick would have felt in that adrenalin rush moment of death. Yet strangely this song gives me comfort as someone else wrote this and I no longer feel so alone in my thoughts and feelings. Even if no one died.. this song is still powerful.. its how many can feel in a relationship. No matter how strange life can get there is always something or someone that can relate and understand and create something as powerful and strangely beautiful as this song to share. ( i am actually a cure fan.. but this is for nick .. and he wasnt a cure fan at all lol ) cake the distance also touches upon this.. a blending of the two would suit nick best goodness knows why him and i were ever together ! |
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