| Foo Fighters – Home Lyrics | 14 years ago |
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This song blew me away the first time I heard it... It completely describes the feelings I experienced the moment my Mother died... the moment I had alone with her in hospice right after she passed away. She was in hospice for 4 days.. I slept on a cot right next to her the whole time and I promised her I would be right there with her the whole time.. no matter how bad I knew it would hurt to see her take her last breath, I didn't want her to be alone when that moment came... On the 4th day, I had to run home real quick to take care of something and she passed away while I was gone.. at the time, I was completely devastated! (Now I know she did that for me.. she knew how much it would kill me to see that moment happen.. so she waited for me to leave to finally let go..) When I got back to hospice, they let me have a moment with her alone.. When I was a little girl, whenever I felt bad/sad, I would lay my head on my mothers lap/stomach when she sat on the couch and I would instantly feel better/calm.. the one thing I remember that was so soothing was the sounds I could hear in her stomach.. strange, I know.. but it was so calming. So, as I was in the room with her after she passed away, my instinct drove me to lay my head on her stomach.. as I laid there crying, I prayed to God to let me hear one more sound from her so I could tell her good-bye and that I love her... I laid there for about a half hour and I never heard a sound... So... when I first heard this song a couple years later.. It actually brought me to my knees: I wish I were with you, I couldn't stay....> (this is the moment I left hospice) Every direction leads me away....> ('something' pulled me away) Pray for tomorrow, but for today....> (praying for tomorrow and the long road of grieving and healing, but right now...) All I want is to be home....> ( as I lay my head on her stomach.. I want to be that little girl again, home with my Mother) Stand in the mirror, you look the same.....> (even though my life has completely changed, I am still the same person) Just looking for shelter, from the cold and the pain...> (looking for something or someone to take all this pain away..) Someone to cover, safe from the rain All I want is to be home Echoes and silence, patience and grace....> (Amazing line here.. I felt all of this during that moment!) All of these moments I'll never replace...> (All my moments and time with my mother will never be replace by anything/anyone.) Fear of my heart, absence of faith....> (A small doubt about God/Heaven .. Is it really real? will I ever see her again?) All I want is to be home All I want is to be home People I've loved, I have no regrets Some I remember, some I forget Some of them living, some of them dead All I want is to be home This last part of the song is about how this moment in my life has taught me about what is 'truly' important in life and that small stuff we all worry ourselves to death over... really don't matter at all! Thank you, Dave for writing this song.. It has helped me heal in so many ways! |
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