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I heard of this song back in my freshman year, but never bothered listening to it. Then I found it again in a YouTube amv, so I looked it up on Frostwire, then when I listened to it, I cried so much cause it reminded me EXACTLY how I feel about a breakup that happened a few months ago..he helped me get over a bad lead-on, and he seemed to be the one; he made me happier than I had ever been in my life..and he took away all the pain I felt..even though some of my pain came back and made me angry at him for no reason, in the end, I always felt horrible and did everything I could to make it up to him..but the night before our 2 month anniversary (he liked me for over a year, btw), he cheated on me by flirting with his ex while texting her..and he was even gonna leave me for her..the next day, he broke up with me, but he told me this: "I don't want a girlfriend anymore.." and it turns out he never got back with his ex..we tried to be friends, but we fought too much, and then we stopped talking in December..but in January, he finally apologized to me for being immature..but he said that we can't be friends..only acquaintances, because "it's what's best for the both of us." and somewhere in between, I found out that he broke up with me and cheated on me because I always went to him for my problems, but when he tried to help, I never took his advice, and over time, it wound up pushing him away..and he just gave up on me. Now we barely talk, and I miss him so much..this is the first time I've fallen in love for a long time, and he made me so happy..but it hurts seeing him everyday, saying hi to each other, and knowing that we can't be together..I feel like I truly fucked up and I wish he could give me one more chance to be a better girlfriend than what I was.....I still love you, Julian, and I'm sorry...
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