| Matthew Barber – Where The River River Bends Lyrics | 15 years ago |
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Do yourself a favor: run, do not walk, & que up the last few minutes of the "craigslist killer" lifetime movie, starting with where he gets arrested if youre familiar with the case. If not, watch the whole thing. Watch the end again and read those lyrics. That scene, with that song, even in the horror & ugliness that is the truth of that story, is achingly beautiful & will tear you to pieces. You will find yourself crying-- & I KNOW my tears were not for philip markoff nor were they wrong or a waste. The song (and the scene as dramatized-- & please for the love of ham & cheese sandwiches pay attention to the "as dramatised" part before you crap gold babies about the rest of this*) is about a profound loss. of anything. but mostly of one's self. so imagine... youre in a river. youre swimming along. the water is warm & shallowish. you hit a little bend or a pocket of deeper water where the current is stronger. it can pull you in & under or it can just be a bit chillier. when you hit it though, you cant know at first. so maybe you nearly drown & are much more careful next time, but maybe you just expect a little cooler water and find yourself sucked under. *Actual feelings about actuality of this case & specifically the suicide of markoff: I think the truth about his suicide was put best by crimesider.com-- the way he did it to himself, using both his medical expertise & a sort of "fail safe" as he did, it was not a cry for help, an attention getting device, or an attempt-- however misguided-- to buy himself an insanity defense. He made sure he did it looking at her. He wrote her name & his name for her in a place where "both of them"-- but ONLY them for that moment-- could see. He genuinely felt he was giving her a gift by sparing her things he may have felt she had not heard yet. Unfortunately, it is indicative of his complete misunderstanding of what he was actually doing that he wrote her name in his blood on the wall of his cell & left behind the picture shrine. Those things were going to be highly visible, highly reported, & sadly, put megan squarely back under the hot lights of publicity. A note, left behind, would have been more respectful to her instead of creating more spectacle and robbing his victims & their families from justice. I think the film is remarkably watchable for the subject matter & a beautifully poignant tribute to Megan & women who are victimised as much by what they did not see (because I do not believe she saw & denied) as his other victims were by what they did see-- and a sincere & honest lack of judgement is deserved by the victims-- all of them. |
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