| Slipknot – Snuff Lyrics | 7 years ago |
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To me, I've always related to this song as about a guy who was crazy about a girl, probably even in "love," and she was always somewhere in between. The girl that made me feel this way is now more of a memory, but I remember listening to this song at the time and thinking "I get it." She had someone else, but she made him believe there was something meaningful between them. Maybe in her mind for a while there even was. But in the end, it didn't happen or fell apart, leaving the singer feeling jaded and wanting to retreat from it. Hopefully my interpretation resonates with someone. It's been a long time for me, but it's funny how a song can revisit old emotions. "Bury all your secrets in my skin" -- she came to the singer, unsure of what she wants, but she tells him her other relationship wasn't what she wanted, or what she needed. She didn't think she loved him, or that it made her happy. The singer, a friend, listened to this and tried to be a friend, despite his own competing feelings. "Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins." -- He's looking back after the fact. The end result is that she made him feel like he'd overstepped and he was the one "guilty" of fracturing their relationship and friendship. "The air around me still feels like a cage." -- He's recalling all the emotions of her, and he remains wrapped in it. "And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again." -- People you're indifferent to don't trigger strong emotions. Love and hate are more closely related than they are to indifference. He loved her, or thought he did. It all fell apart, and he's angry. Maybe it's at himself, or her, or both of them, but in the aftermath, "love" gave way to anger. "So if you love me let me go, and run away before I know." -- It's hard to say whether this is the singer after the fact, or during his time with the girl. To me, this is simultaneously the aftermath and the part of him during his relationship with her. It's the part of him that realizes this is going to be a painful experience if they go forward. That part of him wants to push her away, knowing nothing would materialize between himself and the girl. He knows that he can't pull away himself. "My heart is just too dark to care, I can't destroy what isn't there." -- This is definitely him after they've parted ways. He's jaded and angry. There's no relationship to care about. They are done. They don't speak. "Deliver me into my fate, if I'm alone I cannot hate." -- If he's alone, divorced from the situation, there's nothing left to hate. "I don't deserve to have you. My smile was taken long ago, if I can change I hope I never know." -- Despite everything, he can't help but ask himself whether he's to blame for how things went. If he changes how he looks at it, possibly that brings hope about her. He does not want that. He wants to bury it. "I still press your letters to my lips, and cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss." -- He recalls everything that was said and done between himself and her -- all of the moments of affection, all of their talks and their feelings. He misses this. "I couldn't face a life without your light. But all of that was ripped apart, when you refused to fight." -- He thought he'd found something special in her, and loved her for it. He continued to believe there was a future with her, because she let him. In the end, though, she refused to work for it. She went with a path she told him didn't think made her happy, her path of least resistance in her other relationship. "So save your breath, I will not care. I think I made it very clear. You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?" -- After the fact again. He's angry, and he doesn't want apologies and doesn't want to revisit it. He'd rather replace pain with anger. Here, he looks at her as unable to care enough. She led him on, but in the end couldn't be bothered to do more than let him believe her feelings might be sincere. "I only wish your weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end. I never claimed to be a saint. My own was banished long ago; it took the death of hope to let you go." -- No matter what happened, she wasn't just some random girl he met. They were friends, and started as friends. He cared for her that way first, and part of him would not want to hurt a friend. He wanted someone to blame, and wanted it to be her, but even afterwards, he couldn't see himself holding on to anger forever. He cared about this person. He goes back and forth, trying to justify his anger. Was he wrong? Was she? Did she treat him unfairly and deserve his anger? Or was she just confused? Did she herself not know what she wanted? He chooses anger, at least temporarily. He "never claimed to be a saint." He looks back on it, reflecting on what it took to get over her. While there was "hope" in his mind that something might come of it, he held onto his feelings for her. He couldn't get past it and past her until he realized there wasn't any "hope," or chance left. It was over. "So break yourself against my stones, and spit your pity in my soul." The singer's coming from a spot of anger here. He can't hear it. He doesn't care what happened. He'll take her pity, and it won't matter. Perhaps she's sorry, but again, he won't let himself care this time. He's building an emotional wall here. "You never needed any help. You sold me out to save yourself." -- Something needed to be "sacrificed" with her, him, their relationship, and her other relationship. It was him. "And I won't listen to your shame. You ran away; you're all the same. Angels lie to keep control." -- She tries to approach him afterwards, probably to account for the disintegration of their relationship and friendship. She says she's sorry things happened as they did. He still can't hear it. He saw her as an "angel," but one that lied. Her "control" was the control over his feelings, and she held him through this. "My love was punished long ago. If you still care, don't ever let me know." -- He's still approaching it with anger. His love for her was "used." He cared for her, and she claimed to care for him, but it wasn't enough. His feelings were punished. In the end, she made him feel like he was the one who crossed the line. No matter what they did, how she talked about the disintegration of her existing relationship, or the things she said to him, he was the one in the end who was "punished." The singer can't revisit it. He knows a part of her probably still cares for him, but whatever she can give him isn't enough. He'd rather hold onto the anger of the situation than risk letting himself feel for her again. In this, her saying she cares for him at any point in the future is something he considers a threat. He aims to shut himself off from thinking this way about her any further. |
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