| Alesana – Annabel Lyrics | 15 years ago |
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She killed him in the end because he went crazy. If you get the album, it has a story booklet in it. here are the basics from that story: Chapter 1: Empty Eyes Accuse a Face So Evil: he discovers his only love annabel dead beside him. he immediately thinks that he did it. Chapter 2: Sweaty Hands Fail to Lock the Door: he tries to hide the body by taking it to the basement. there he chops her up to hide her behind loose bricks in the floor. he then keeps mentioning that "They'll be here soon." he decides to run away as far as he can. Chapter 3: It Was Your Poison Kiss that Turned Me Into This: he does more thinking as hes running away. hes wondering why he killed annabel, how he loves her. and this parts a bit vague but i think shes kind of haunting him in a way. he says "leave me alone annabel." Chapter 4: My Thirst For Blood Turns Me On: he feels the need to kill. so he goes to the town tavern and kills seven people. there is a man "who escapes quietly from the balcony." Chapter 5: I Immerse Myself in Sick Reflection: he doesnt know and doesnt care who he saw on the balcony. he believes that killing annabel and the people in the tavern are the best decisions hes ever made in his life, because he has "never felt so alive." he says that he thinks hes going crazy but doesnt see it as a bad thing. he says that annabel told him that his sketchbook would be the end of him and its better if he left it behind. he agrees now, cuz he thinks killing is "way more fun." he exits the tavern but is surprised no one has noticed anything about what had happened. then he sees annabels figure in a mirror. (hes actually been seeing her in a mirror a couple of times throughout the story.) "I shut my eyes and once again the pleasure strangles me. Good morning, town. Behold, for I am the will of the reaper and I am standing closer to the edge than I should be allowed." Chapter 6: Her Somber Silhouette Dances for Me: he sees annabel everywhere. he says that he never meant to hurt annabel, its not his fault, its not who he is, hes not a killer. he runs away from the town and into the countryside. he sees the house where annabel died. leaning against the door is the guy who he escaped from the tavern the night before, whos holding the same knife that was next to annabel when she died. this man is known as the thespian. the thespian vanishes. Chapter 7: My Feet Are Sleeping: he comes to the conclusion that the thespian killed annabel. he wants to know why he killed her. he wants revenge and wants to kill the thespian. then its the part with the "but what is it that i am chasing? am i really chasing anything at all?" in the song. then i think he wants to commit suicide ("Even if I find him and kill him, what good will it do? It will not bring my Annabel back. Killing him will not erase what he has done and bring her out from her tomb in the basement. A tomb that my hands are responsible for crating. There is only one clear solution. I must go to her. I must rejoin her on the other side.") Then he goes back to town. he sees people smiling and happy in the town which seems to get him mad. he feels like he wants to kill again but he "tries to remember the man [he] was, not the man [he has] become." he stumbles into an alley, grabs his knife, the tip approaching his throat, until Annabel appears. his thoughts of revenge, death, and mistakes vanish. Chapter 8: Dead Girls Don't Just Appear Out of Thin Air: he passes out and wakes up in an "unfamiliar bed in an even more unfamiliar house." he sees a note that says to go downstairs for a meal. he goes downstairs and sees annabel. he says that he wants to think its annabel but he says that his "heart knew the truth," that it was an angel sent from heaven to save his life. they go for a walk, he tells her everything that has happened, how he loves annabel, etc. when they got back home, they share stories, past, etc. then he thinks this: "Being with her makes me completely forget the nightmare my life has become. Maybe this is exactly what I need; someone to fill the empty void that the loss of Annabel has left inside of me." he approaches to kiss her, then she disappears. he finds himself back at the alley, concluding it was a dream, that that angel was annabel, and that was the only place he would ever see her again. Chapter 9: It's Happening Again, It's Happening Again: he sees annabel's reflection in a window of a local butcher shop. shes smiling at him, then a blade slices her throat, her body falls to the floor, the thespian is standing over and laughing at her lifeless body. he wanders around the town for days and days, then suddenly realizes that nobody has discovered the bodies at the tavern yet, nobody has noticed him. so he goes back to the tavern and sees that its normal. no bodies, "business as usual." its as if nothing happened at all. he sees annabels reflection again. this time, as a distorted image. she looks at him in disgust and says "you let him kill me," tips her head back, showing the wound on her throat, and the wound starts to bubble. he decides to kill the thespian. Chapter 10: You Have No Clue What She Is Capable Of: he sets on to search for the thespian. he goes in an alley and sees his shadow that is holding that same knife that killed annabel. they both fight eachother. the thespian hurts him but he keeps missing the thespian. then he becomes paralyzed. then hears "the soft soothing voice of a woman with a tongue of honey." it was annabel's. "'Sweetheart? Darling?...Turn around. It's me. Follow my voice. Everything is going to be okay, my love. Everything will be fine. It's all over now.'" he finds himself back in the bedroom, standing in front of the mirror. it was that morning that annabel died except shes alive. "The mirror had revealed to me its deepest secret. There she was, my sweet Annabel, covered in blood standing behind me, twisting the blade she has plunged into my side. I had promised her the world and still I had let her down. The darkness returns and I shall never see this world again." Epilogue, And Now the Dream Is Over: (this part is in annabel's point of view) "My name is Annabel and I am here to tell you the story of the day that I killed a madman. There is nothing more frightening that watching the man you love try to kill himself. The exception is watching the man you used to love turn into a complete and utter lunatic." she found his sketches odd. shed see him sitting alone in a corner, talking to himself while sketching. like hes holding a conversation. she was too scared to interrupt and when shed mention it, he would say that she was mistaken, confused by what she saw. she says that she doesnt feel the love that he once had for her in his heart. he kept muttering about "seven people in a tavern, a beautiful angel saving his life, and some man he called The Thespian ruining everything." his sketches became more and more disturbing. one night when he fell asleep, she looked into his sketchbook. this is the last paragraph: I did not kill my love. The man that I loved, that I shared my life with, laughed with, cried with, was long gone. No, I did not kill him. He killed himself. He killed himself when he allowed the madman inside his head to take control. I spent years watching in silence as his illness spilled onto the pages of that damn book. Is it my fault? Was there something I could have done to prevent his descent into insanity? In the end, should I blame him or blamed myself? Did he ever think the sketches would take over completely? did I? No, the man standing, staring blindly into the mirror in front of me is not my love. I said goodbye to him nearly a year ago. If he does still exist somewhere inside of this demented mind, I'll be damned if I can find him. That guy standing here is the man who killed my love and stole all that I hold dear. He is the crazy guy who found shelter in the mind of an artist and escaped onto page. The knife that this creature had thought would kill me had failed. The very knife that I now hold in my hand." |
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| Natalie Grant – Held Lyrics | 16 years ago |
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It was written by Christa Wells in response to her own loss. Here is what was said (Natalie also says this at the beginning of some versions of the song): "Most of us have experienced the death of a loved one or we've watched somebody that we know and love experience the pain of losing someone that they love. Maybe this is even happening to one of you right now or to someone that you know in your circle of friends, your school, your work, your prayer group. My friend Christa Wells wrote this song after she had lost two people very dear to her in the span of 48 hours. I recorded this song in the prayer and hopes that it would bring comfort to a lot of people. The first time I heard it, honestly it just moved me to tears. Christa found a lot of comfort in the message. My prayer and hope is that you will, too." -Natalie Grant The following is on her personal website to intro the song: "Christa Wells, a part-time songwriter and stay-at-home mom of three in North Carolina wrote this song in response to two very difficult losses that happened within 48 hours. And for her, I think it must have been one of those total shake-your-fist-at-God moments where you cry, "Why God?" These are the things in life that we cannot understand or explain, and the lyrics reflect that honesty. God didn’t promise us we’d be okay or that life would be easy. My faith does not protect me from pain, but it provides me with peace. God only promises us that when we suffer, when we’re in pain, we’ll be held in His arms through every circumstance." |
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