| Sarah McLachlan – Perfect Girl Lyrics | 15 years ago |
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This song is actually very personal for me. It literally summed up my entire relationship. I was with someone for three years that I never should have gotten involved with. "Am I faithful, am I strong, am I good enough to belong..." In your reverie, a perfect girl?" So many times my character was questioned by him, and his family...mainly because he only told them what he wanted them to hear. But when we were out in public and/or in front of his family, our relationship came across as perfect. "Your vision of romance is cruel, and all along I played the fool, all your expectations bury me." Without getting into detail, he would be romantic with me when there was something in it for him, and never doing anything just because he wanted to. However, he always expected me to be there for him, do things for him..because he felt we/I owed it to him. "But you take my words and twist them 'round, 'til I'm the one who brings you down. Make me feel like I'm the one to blame for all of this..." Anyone who has been in some sort of abusive relationship could possibly relate to this. Anything that was said good or bad, was always turned around to make me look like the bad guy. "The riot in my heart decides to keep me open and alive. I have to take myself away from you, 'cause I can't compete, I can't deny there's nothing that I didn't try, how did I go wrong in loving you?" The whole time I was with him, I tried to get out, but I wasn't ready to leave just yet. However when I decided to move, I finally made the decision to leave him and not look back. Although there were many times I tried to make things work, but obviously I couldn't make him want to do anything. "How did I go wrong in loving you?" Lol that was a question I asked myself so many times throughout the relationship. It's sad it took me 3 years to finally figure out that it wasn't going to get any better. But I'm glad that I never married him. "You need everybody with you on your side. Know that I am here for you but I hope in time... You'll find yourself alright alone, you'll find yourself with open arms, you'll find yourself, you'll find yourself in time." He was the kind of person who needed everyone's approval, and if he didn't get it...it was because of everyone else, and not his own demons bringing him down. Unfortunately, he has never really "found" himself. The last I had heard he was still doing the same thing and engaging in the same actions. I really don't think he will ever learn until it's too late. Sorry for my choppy interpretation of the song. But I thought it would be better to relate it to my own experiences than to say what I think the song means. Because there are so many ways others hear the song, and it may mean something completely different to someone else. For those of you who are in an abusive relationship, it's never too late to get out. Those who are just getting out of one, keep pushing through. It may seem as if you'll never get to the other side, but trust me...it will happen. Six years later, I'm living proof. And I couldn't be happier with my life. |
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| Trading Yesterday – My Last Goodbye Lyrics | 15 years ago |
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I just happened to stumble across Trading Yesterday a few months ago. And it seems as if my life is in these songs. This one in particular really got me. I've been off and on with someone for the last 15 years. It wasn't as if we didn't want to make it work...the timing was always off. Life happens in that amount of time. Marriages, kids, divorces, moves...whatever the reason we were never able to make it work. This last time we decided to try, but again the same thing happened. The timing was off. Unfortunately this last time devastated me knowing we had to break it off again. The love is still there and it probably always will be, but someone had to take the plunge and say no more. Otherwise, I doubt I'd ever be able to truly move on with my life. So here we are again Knowing this will never end So I must let go these lyrics stood out (along with a lot of others). As much as I love him, I can't keep waiting on him to realize what he wants. And as much as it hurts to let him go, I know it was the right thing for me to do. It's been a month since I've let him go, and every day it is starting to hurt a little less. My Last Goodbye...pretty much says it all. This is my last goodbye This will be one final tear for love to die I will not wait here and waste my whole life With my last goodbye With my last goodbye |
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