| Metallica – The Unforgiven II Lyrics | 5 years ago |
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I am not writing what I think it was meant to be about, but what this song became for me. My husband of 20 years told me a couple weeks ago that he wants a divorce. I have been suicidal and I asked him to lock away our guns. But he didn’t. I believed he wanted me dead. I cried to him about feeling that way, and all I needed to hear from him was that he wanted me to live. (And speak the words I wanna hear to make my demons run) I stopped trusting him (the door is locked now) when I found out he was cheating on me. I told him I would forgive him and we could work it out (but it’s open if you are true) and I just want to go to counseling and both of us could learn how to be better to each other (If you can understand the me then I can understand the you) We are on the verge of divorce but I just want to talk to him about our problems and heal, but we are both scared (Lay beside me, under wicked sky Through black of day, dark of night, we share this, paralyzed) I keep offering a chance to reconcile (The door cracks open) but he just refuses (but there's no sun shining through) His heart has gone cold and he just keeps breaking my heart (Black heart scarring darker still but there's no sun shining through) Everything we have been through, all the times I have forgiven his lies and continued like I could still trust him (What I've felt, what I've known Turn the pages, turn the stone) Each time, wondering if I will be hurt again (Behind the door, should I open it for you?) I am here, feeling abandoned and used up (Sick and tired, I stand alone) but I am still open to reconciliation and waiting in hope he might have a change of heart (Could you be there ‘Cause I'm the one who waits for you) But he can’t forgive me. Maybe I shouldn’t forgive him (Or are you unforgiven too?) I beg for him to give me another chance at loving him better (Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear) but I keep going back and forth on how I feel about him; burned yet compassionate (She loves me not, she loves me still) and I can’t imagine loving someone else like I love the father of my children (but she'll never love again) I am still here, but he is walking away from me (She lay beside me but she'll be there when I'm gone) As each day passes, the pain grows deeper, yet I am still hopeful for reconciliation (Black hearts scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I’m gone) I know I have hurt him and been a poor listener, and I just want him to trust me to do better (Lay beside me, tell me what I've done) but he still refuses and really cannot comprehend the pain he has put me through and all the struggles of motherhood and being ill (The door is closed so are your eyes) I am starting to realize that he is a lost cause and can never feel compassion for what I’ve suffered (But now I see the sun, now I see the sun Yes now I see it) I will forever bear this pain of rejection and neglect, and since he can’t forgive me, why should I forgive him? (Never free, never me 'Cause you're unforgiven too) I know, pathetic, right? F’ing love anyways... |
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| Skillet – Better Than Drugs Lyrics | 16 years ago |
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"Coming on so fast? If God is in your life, is he not *always* at your side? Just what I'm thinking, that's all." Good point, but maybe that could relate to the feeling when you sense the Holy Spirit working in the moment. It truly is an elated feeling for many. |
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| Decyfer Down – Burn Back The Sun Lyrics | 16 years ago |
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The sun might represent the source of God's love. God loved the singer so much that it left a lasting mark. Now he wants to love God back that much. Or maybe the sun is himself, representing the fact that he was living his life and loving himself as though everything revolved around him. Now he is recognizing that there is something even hotter [greater] than the sun [himself] and he is only a small part of a greater universe [creation] that he will never know fully about... This greater thing [God] can burn [love] the sun [him] even more than any amount of heat [love] the sun [he] can generate from within... IDK I just made that up... It's a work in progress. |
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