| William Fitzsimmons – Maybe Be Alright Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 13 - the final track - from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) A new understanding solitude in the absence of his betrayed love, the man finally finds a way to come to accept the loss. He knows that his love has an opportunity to be happy again. All though that is small compensation to the wounded it is all he has. He knows that she may be happy, and that is what he truly wants now. That is the only way he can find forgiveness and closure. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Find me to Forgive Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 11 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) The plea of remorse; he has apologized by every means he that he can except to his ex-wife directly. He hopes that she will cherish what was enough so that at some point in mortality or beyond he will be able to deliver his apology. The line “I haven’t seen you for over a year. I heard you were married; the baby you carried isn't mine,” is intriguing. Is the child his, and the new husband has assumed the roll of father; or is the child not his, and it turns out that she was unfaithful too? |
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| William Fitzsimmons – They'll Never Take The Good Years Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 10 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) The guilt of his unfaithful heart has the subject doubting weather he will ever learn from his mistakes. The guilt has him openly wondering whether he can be faithful, yet he yearns for the wonderful time that he grows more and more grateful for. Still he fears committing to a past or a present relationship, for he never wishes to hurt another the way he hurt his former wife. This is the musical version of “It is better to love and lost, than to never have loved at all.” |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Afterall Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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| William Fitzsimmons – You Still Hurt Me Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 9 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) After a breakup the desire to reconcile emerges over and over again. With ever clear hind sight, personal shortcomings are readily apparent, and strategies develop regarding what could have been done to overcome them. Each reminder of the past relationship reinvigorates this thinking, and each personal acknowledgment emphasizes the ever-present swollen lump of sorrow that dwells in inside the soul of one who has forsaken love for lust and regretted the decision. The battle against this feeling rages as he rids his world of every tactile and visual reminder, yet he reluctantly knows that he still keeps his wedding ring. The ring is just kept somewhere where he will be reminded everyday. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Even Now Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 8 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) Of the five steps of morning (denial, anger, bargaining, despair, acceptance) acceptance is the most agonizing. All of the past emotions must be reconciled. This song highlights this. The “I hope we’ll meet again” plea laced throughout the song reveals the denial and the bargaining that continually fight against acceptance. The “Whose eyes will you look in when love is in your heart…” verse reveals the anger (expressed as muted jealousy) that still stirs his heart. The “Whose side should I take when both of us are wrong,” verse reveals a level of acceptance as he expresses the realization that he continues to make mistakes, but that ultimately (in nearly every marriage) both parties contribute to a divorce. The question “How long should I wait before I let you go” verse reveals suggests that he is reticent to leave the despair he feels. Despair isn’t a wonderful place. It is a safe place. One doesn’t need to live life. One can still nurture vain hopes. Anger and frustration have ready justification. Past dreams are reviewed, relived, and recycled. No one can hurt you there, because you are already hurt. This song captures the struggle of acceptance with haunting beauty. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Just Not Each Other Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 7 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) Discontented by the partial reconciliation with his former wife (see the previous track Further From You) and despondent that he will not be a full time parent for his unborn child the subject returns to his new home in the same old house. Haunted by the love he still bears for the woman he betrayed the man descends to the point of despair where he is resigned to his lonely state, yet the negotiator refused to die. He recalls an offence that he forgave and immediately transitions to the current state of their serviceable but detached relationship. Realism set upon the man, as he recognizes one day he will love again. He just won’t love again with the one he loves. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Further From You Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 6 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) A reconciliation of a cordial relationship is established. The former wife has moved on to her next love, which coincides with her finding the means to forgive her former husband. Recognizing the reconciliation is not complete, nor will it ever be, the man understands this reunion is temporary. Lives move on. Change is constant. Without the bond he and his former wife once held this relationship is destined for desistance. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Please Forgive Me (Song of the Crow) Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 5 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) The contrast is the song is poignant. As the man recognizes and proclaims his betrayal he begs for forgiveness from the one he has isolated, wounded, and abandoned, yet he shepherds his “demons.” In other words he can not nor will he forgive himself, because by attending and nurturing his demons he privately absolves his wife’s suffering. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – If You Would Come Back Home Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 4 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow —.) This song details the internal bargaining for reconciliation that begins when both spouses feel exceptionally alone, yet the both occupy the building that once made a home. The opening line strikes an appropriately disharmonic chord to those who, while enduring the anguish of marital dissolution, sleep further and further from their spouse and closer and closer to the periphery of the bed until the edge becomes an edge too narrow. In the reticent hours of early morning the bed’s edge rejects the nocturnal drifter and the inanimate arms of a chair welcomes him; an island for the castaway set adrift by his deep remorse and his wife’s inconsolable soul-barricade. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – I Don't Feel It Anymore Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 2 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow —.) The wrongdoer opens with an enigmatic confession laced with grief and remorse. The betrayed and wounded spouse attempts to reconcile her emotional losses against her years invested into the relationship. The hurting and the sorrow overwhelm both, and they acknowledge the tenuous state of their love in the absence of trust. In each other’s company the couple dwells in an apparently inescapable eddy of sorrow. Unable to find solid footing to escape the whirlpool of loss and betrayal each regretfully surrenders to the abyss of loneliness where they can experience occasional moments with out unremitting declarations of a dying relationship. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – Afterall Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 1 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow —.) This is one of the most emotionally raw and inconsolable albums I have ever experienced. If one has ever endured a divorce, either as the innocent child or as a spouse, this album delivers parallel yet opposite passages that are equally heart wrenching and therapeutic. The opening track sets the theme and the emotional stage for the entire album. This song builds the mosaic of emotions; remorse contrasted with hope, betrayal seeking repair from a jeopardized relationship, an uncertain future contrasted reconciled against definitive vows; despair and uncertainly combining against love. |
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| William Fitzsimmons – We Feel Alone Lyrics | 17 years ago |
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(Track 3 from the album The Sparrow and the Crow) From the perspective of one of two siblings, this song reflects on the loss of innocents and naivety a child experiences when their world shatters with their death of their parents’ relationship, then looking for “safe ground” each child retreats to his or her emotionally safe place. The unfortunate consequence of this action is that the sibling relationship is ever-altered and awkward despite the noble intentions to remain close, as each brother and / or sister chooses personal seclusion over risking further emotional heart ache. |
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