| Flyleaf – So I Thought Lyrics | 16 years ago |
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This is definitely a breakup song, but there's more to it than that. I agree with what most people have posted, but there are certain lines I interpret differently. "All your twisted thoughts free flow To everlasting memories Show soul Kiss the stars with me And dread the wait for Stupid calls returning to us to life" First off, since she says "your" thoughts, I take this to mean her ex-boyfriend's. To me, it sounds like this verse is about the past. The two of them would have conversations in which "twisted thoughts free flow" aka talk about taboo things people don't normally discuss. However, these conversations "show soul" as in showed who they really were without restraint and created memories that she's thinking about in this verse. The last two lines show that they were infatuated with each other and dreaded being interrupted. This entire verse shows the nature of their relationship. It sounds like she was shutting other people out and relying entirely on him, which is why the breakup was so painful. "We say to those who are in love It can't be true 'cause we're too young I know that's true because so long I was So in love with you So I thought" This is pretty straightforward; she was told by her peers and others that she was too young to really be in love, but she didn't believe them. Now that it's over, she isn't sure whether or not it was true love. Her ideas are overly romanticized, and she doesn't understand how they could've broken up if they were ever truly in love. However, judging by the depth of her feelings and pain, she really was in love with him. "On my knees Dim lighted room Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this I'm not faithless Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose" This is probably my favorite line. She truly believed she was in love with him and put a lot of faith into their relationship. Since it went under, she's second guessing her faith in other things as well, like God, but she doesn't want to be unsure about that. By saying she's paranoid of "getting lost" I think she means losing a part of herself. I was very much infatuated with my first love as well, and he and I were together for 2 years. In that time, I drifted away from my friends and he was the only person who really knew me by the end of our relationship. Considering how the first verse described their relationship, I think she's experiencing this same thing. She feels alone now that he isn't there and, more than anything, is terrified that she'll never experience that kind of relationship again and that that part of herself will forever cease to exist. The line "that I might lose" means something different. It would make more sense if you could add a word onto the end of this line, what is she afraid of losing? Herself could also be the answer here, but I think the best answer is her faith, hope, or will to live. After such a terrible breakup, she's in danger of falling into a depression she won't escape from. She's trying to prevent that by not losing those 3 listed things. She knows if she loses them, she may never be happy again. This line may even refer to suicide, which goes along with the idea that she doesn't want to lose the will to live. I remember people often saying something like "God promised he would never do anything to us we couldn't handle." I know it's unlikely she's thinking this exactly, but it goes along these lines. Suicide is considered by many denominations to be a sin, since its taking control of your life instead of leaving it in God's hands. By saying "I'm not faithless" could be read as she's so depressed, she almost wants to kill herself but knows that it would be a sin. "Ignorance is bliss cherish it Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold Believe it not And fight the tears With pretty smiles and lies about the times" This verse is also pretty easily understood. She's realizing that the way things look on the surface isn't necessarily the way they are. She's putting on a front and pretending that she's happy, as much to fool herself as to fool others. "Choris Romance says goodnight Close your eyes and I'll close mine Remember you, remember me Hurt the first, the last between And I'm praying that we will see Something there in between Then and there that exceeds all we can dream So we can talk about it" These two verses are what she wishes could happen now. The "you" is her ex-boyfriend. She wants the two of them to stop concentrating on how bad everything is and stop and remember how things used to be. She's hoping that by doing so, they'll realize that they want to give it another try. "Then and there" I think means "the beginning and the end" as in of their relationship. She wants them to remember the times they were happiest and remember the dreams they had of being together in the future so that they'll be able to talk to each other again. She wants them to find something worth trying for. |
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