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You guys are going about this song pretty much on the right track where I am, all except for one thing. Nobody has become the character in the song. For those of you who ever has dealt with or more people whom you love died, you are guessing what I mean. Well, thats partially what I am talking about. But, putting myself as the character in the song, I see it different than that...deeper. It represents everything that a child/teenager can go through when a close friend, relative, or parent dies. The character is a young girl whom has recently lost the closest person that they had very suddenly and unexpectedly and the time the song takes place is right after the funeral and burial has already taken place. It takes place on their first day back to school since the events of the death takes place. She's still mourning extremely but that didnt matter to her mother/father. All that mattered was getting her to go on with life as soon as possible. However, doing that only hurt her emotionally even worse than she already has been, due to the death. The song begins taking place on the school playground, right after the bell that ends recess ends. The young girl is sitting outside at a picnic table/on the merry-go-round/or etc. and then, the school bell rings and the story begins. She is all alone out there but thats how she's been, and wanted to stay, just left alone. The first line, "Playground schoolbell rings, again". At the end of that line it says the word "again" it refers to the bell that lets you know that recess has ended. She does hear it but doesn't even care becuase she has absolutely no desire to go back inside. So, she is just left out there, all alone, hurting and constantly thinking to her self. The second line, which says, "...Rainclouds come to play...again...". It doenst represent a storm or anything. It actually represents everything that the song revolves around; her sadness, hurt, pain, grief, confusion, coping, and just dealing with the situation. Now, moving onto the third line, which says, "..Has no one told you she's not breathing?...". It is her mind, revealing to her once again that the person HAS died and that they need to start coping/dealing with it now, rather than later on to prevent it from becoming difficult to handle. Her concience is also at play with her mind because even though they both know how much she is hurting in her heart, they know that not dealing with it now is only going to make things worse in the future, but at the same time, she keeps repeating to herself that the only way to deal is to ignore it. Now, onto the fourth line, which says, "...hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to...hello....". This is basically saying that her mind is telling her that if she'd talk to it, it could help her deal with the situation. At the end of that line, it says the word, "hello", which is said as an introduction to the truth, one that the girl doesnt want to accept. The fifth line is not only the second verse of the song, it is also a turning point in the story. It says, "...If I smile and dont believe...", which describes her acting like the person never died, ignoring the fact that she [the female who died] truly did die, completely avoiding the fact that she needsd to find a way to cope with her feelings, and doing so, she bottles up more of her emotions but blocks them out by pretending that nothing is wrong and ignoring the truth. The sixth line says, "...soon I know I'll wake from this dream...". Now that she has herself convinced that none of this is really happening to her, she assumes that it really isnt real; that she is dreaming it all and she can just wake up and everything will be okay, even though her mind knows otherwise. The seventh line says, "...dont try to fix me I'm not broken...". Now shes doing things to shut her mind up from telling her the same thing over and over and over again so she thinks that its "broken" so she trys anti-depressants, therapy, and other temporary solutions but still, nothing works because deep down she knows the truth and she is hurting too much, still, to admit it. Her mind is now crying out for her to stop trying to shut it up and listen to it but she doesnt. Now moving onto the eighth line says, "...hello, I'm the lie, living for you so you can hide...dont cry....". Now, her mind has finally quit trying to get through to her heart about the truth, so now, its exposing itself as the big lie that she is now living by convincing herself that shes dreaming it all up. So, now that her mind is giving in *somewhat*, not completely, and still is trying to show her the truth and once it addresses itself as a huge lie, she finally listens and learns the truth IS real and she is NOT dreaming. Now, her mind is telling her not to cry over it. Now, the nineth line says, "...suddenly I know I'm not sleeping...". Now, she admits the truth to herself and its hurting her so much because it took so long to admit it but now that she did, she loses it and is no longer able to keep in the feelings so her mind refers as "I" or in other words, still the same person, and admits it, finally. The tenth line says, "...suddenly i know I'm not sleeping....". Again, she is admitting to herself and now, learning to cope with it. The last line says, "..hello, I'm still here, all thats left of yesterday....". Now, its her memory, her concience, AND her mind is trying to help her out...all thats left of yesterday... it refers to the past..what happened and whats going to happen once she starts coping. This song, as I said, is one you have to get into. I did and it tells a part of the story of my life where I lost it all, denied it, and no matter how much everyyone, myself included, said the truth, I never actually *listened* and now that I admitted it 4 years later that my dad, grandfather, and best friend is truly gone, it hurts more now and I'm coping as best as I can; as does the character in the 'story'. |
