Well I'm at work right now and feeling a bit down in the dumps...girls suck so bad I just wish I could find a good girl to be my girl and share with. Last thursday at Raggs was awesome I was dancing with this beautiful girl that came up to me and I kissed her on the dance floor it seemed too good to be true and of course it was...she gave me her number at the end of the night and everytime I call the motherfucker it gives me the fax/internet sound. Whatever. Tonight Ray and I are going to see Old School in grandville. Last night I stopped out at JJ's in holland and met up with darrin, spyke, elizabeth, mandy, and beth. Beth, apparently broke up with Jason wow that was a pretty big shocker but when i walked up and Beth was pretty much crying on her phone I knew it was probably something that had to do with Jason so I wasn't THAT surprised. It was alright I didn't drink which let me tell ya what was not easy to do. I'm feeling the itch right now especially because I am feeling melancholy and I didn't drink last night. Might have a few at Fridays or something before the movie. Ah well life goes on. Song: Audioslave: Like A Stone

Well saturday was the b4 party it was a really good time. I bough a tyler durden outfit it was sweet. I remember everything yet I was drinkin pretty good too. So that was cool. So anyway tonight I am feeling lonely again and wishing I had someone to share my life with...agh its the same ole shit every damn day I feel like I have so much to give that I would treat a girl really really good but nothing. Ah well. Song: Audioslave - Like a Stone

Well, went to Gardella's last night, and then taps for a little bit. Bill has a few p.a. friends that are pretty cute. So turns out Stoy works at Gardella's, she said she's been working there for about a month. Man she was looking good last night. She's so beautiful I really wish her and I would have kept seeing each other. I wish I knew what happened, hell she doesn't even i.m. me back on aim anymore. She was nice enough last night though. Tonight is the b-4 pre end of year end of year party. They are supposedly having 2 kegs and using the downstairs for a dancefloor with the upstairs for beer pong. I think there will be a decent amount of people there, but we will see. Mood: Reflective Song: Evanescence - Bring Me To Life

Well alot has happened since my last post. I rolled my jeep on the way to work. Nice Asa. Its totaled. I didn't have my seatbelt on, I guess I'm "lucky" to be alive. Both of the girls who's numbers I got from the bars numbers didn't work - either I was too fuckin drunk when I put them in my phone or they intentionally gave me the wrong number. Either way it sucks a big fuckin willy and makes me want to drink. Which brings me to my next point. Tim Basset asked me why I drink last week. At the time I told him, I dunno just because. Upon reflection though, I have actually figured out while I don't just drink, but drink excessively. I drink to escape reality. Plain and simple I don't like reality I think it sucks at this point. Songs: Evanescense:Bring me to life; Chevelle:Send the pain

fuckin worked 12 hrs today...as I did yesterday...wondering if I should call this girl from the bar who's number I got on saturday...if I do it, it has to be tonight cuz its been 3 days...haven't talked to jessica in a while, should prolly call her too...currently i'm into sepultura's roots bloody roots that song rules...i downloaded a song by a band called murderdolls - dead in hollywood - pretty good song, nothing spectacular...from the video they look like marilyn manson knockoffs...well this is my first journal entry i guess only time will tell if I'll actually keep doing this...