These are the songs right now that describe how I feel for my love, Lyman. Destiny's Child "Dangerously in Love" and "Brown Eyes" Alicia Keys' "Never Felt This Way" "Butterflyz" "Fallen" Monica's "Angel of Mine" Police's "Every Breathe You Take" And more will be posted later... -~- Lyman Chester -~- He is the only person that I can think of now... Everything is gone and all time doesn't matter when I am with him. Even when I think of him, all things are gone and only he and I are the only living and breathing creatures in the whole world and universe! I just wish that I could tell him that I love him... I wish he would say if he does... Soon he'll be gone and I know that the time I spend without him will forever haunt and make me regret staying away from him. I may not produce the best poetry about him but at least I can write without hesitation. It's hard for me to do that but he is my passion and all things are possible and all feelings and thoughts are flowing freely with him. My heart beats harder and faster when I am with him, even when I just think of him. My head spins and whirls endlessly, it's like I'm living a fantasy that will never end. I have a yearning to touch, taste, see, hear, and smell him... he is the reason why I have all five senses. He is like the air, I can't live without him. He is an essential for my well-being. I wish, I yearn to tell him how I feel. I can even picture having his children. He would be a great dad. He has that potential that I am looking for. No one else seems to see that but me... I don't get it, it's so obvious. That was one of the first things that I picked up from him. Our children would look beautiful... we would have the house, the car, the family, the pet, and the everlasting love. I find myself thinking about names for our future children... It hurts to be away from him at all times. I miss him too much, you might say. I cry when I don't get to see him, I ache to just hear his voice. I can't go through a day without even hearing him say at least "hello". I hate myself for falling this early in life but I have to thank God everyday for letting such a wonderful, beautiful, caring, compassionate, artistic, adorable, loving, warm, heavenly, and absolutely perfect person in my life. I am not worthy of such a man. I'm not worthy of accepting his care and affection. I wish I could hold him when he is depressed. I wish I could wipe away his tears. I wish I could heal his aches and pains that he may feel inside. I wish I could live with him as one person. I wish that I could forever be in his presence. I wish that I could grant every single desire he has and ever will have. I would do anything for him. I will do anything just so he can be happy. I will bleed just for him to be healed. I will kill just for him to live all life's wondrous offerings. I will withstand the torturous pain of the world just for him to know the serenity and peace the world has for any living being. I will give him the world. I will give him life. I will give him my freedom, love, mind, body, and soul. I will dedicate every waking moment just to please this man. I've never felt this way for any person I have ever known or met. A love of this magnitude is not enough for my lord, my master, my king, and one and only love. No one can tame my spirit except one person... Lyman Lance Chester, no one but him. There are better words that describe my love for Lyman. I just cannot produce such beauty... everything I do is not good enough to be in his presence and yet he praises all that I do. I have found someone who knows my every move and knows all my feelings and thoughts, just as I know his. It is uncanny and very weird but it feels so right just the same. I can never let him go! I can never let him go! -~ Sonya Brooks ~- - April 30, 2003 -