i really want a turlte....like really bad. i threw the idea at my mom and she said was like, hmm i don't think that's a good idea right now, not with all the boxes and stuff everywhere, here would be no place for you to put it (we are in the moving process). i was like, what the fuck!!, its not like a want a fucking aligator or something. my mom is so gay. ahhh. i've already thought of a name for it. it name owuld be dribble. i thought of that name because of my favorite book "tales of the fourth grade nothing". in the book this little boy won a turtle at this birthday party and he named it dribble. man that book is kick ass. i recomend it! but anyways, i am really tired, so yeah....

i am such a bitch. no, not a bitch...a shallow bitch. ahh. i can't stand myself sometimes. all i do is think about myself. i don't care about other peoples emotions or feelings. i mean i do care but i often catch myself being very mean to alot of people. i try to help people and i try to make everything better for alot of people, but some people just do not appreciate anything these days. i guess that is why i get so mad sometimes. i don't know. sometimes i don't even know know myself. i am so moody. i get mad for the smallest reasons. i really need to change my selfish ways....i don't want to use people i don't want to be mean anymore, i want to be the girl who people can go to for a friend. sure i have friends, but still, i take them forgranted sometimes.. this is weird i bet people all over the world are probably reading this...ha

don't you hate it when you're just lying there in your bed and you can't fall asleep??...i hate it! all i do is toss and turn and stare at the ceiling. i have been trying to go to sleep since about 12:00 but i couldn't so i just got on the internet... before i went to sleep i went to do the whole use the bathroom brush my teeth routine and when i was peeing i smelt something fresh. i didn't know what it was so i was just sitting there, sniffing around, when i realized that our toilet paper had that nice fesh scent. isn't that weird??...fresh smelling toilet paper. haha it's cool. i like it. you're down for selling me out, while i played dumb. its cool cause i let you. thought i'd never catch you. you'd say "we're only friends". yeah, real good friends. i bet i bet. i really wish i could see taking back sunday play live. that would be so awsome! they are my favorite band. i have never seen them. they were supposed to come in april and may but they cancelled both shows. i really hope they get it together becasuse i really want to see them and meet and take pictures and get the autographs..well, you know..the whole prize.

this is my first journal entry. im so nervous... ok. well lets get the ball rolling...my name is ivanna and i live in dallas and that is all i will tell you for now. i mean it is my first time and all.. this is sort of like a live journal but a songmeanings journal..i used to want a livejournal, but then everyone started to get one so i was like 'hey i don't want to be like everyone else.' so i didn't get one afterall. ok enough about that.. i love taking back sunday. they are my all time favorite band in the whole wide world. NO, not the world, the UNIVERSE! muahhahahaha. ok ok i know. im not funny. or maybe i am funny but no one understands my sense of humor... or maybe some people do not have a sense a humor.. ok well im just babbleing on and on about nothing...so i guess it is now time to say goodbye. goodbye my fellow songmeaning..ers