sometimes i wonder if anyone sees this....though i think im the only one who reads this stuff...and i do it often...maybe that's why it's here...so i can remember all the memories i've made....insignificant they might seem...but i know how i felt when i made them..nobody could ever come close to knowing...therefore im glad im the only one who reads this crap over and over again...even though i know these things are safely stored in my brain...i want to make sure i cant print it out someday...hoping someone i want to understand will....so here they are....all for you samantha...enjoy. tom....i love you so much...despite the fact that we've grown apart and gone our separate ways...i've realized that you will always be there...even if you're not here...good luck in all your future endeavors. you arent answering your phone...i miss you too much...i wish i could sit still for you all day...but im afraid im human...i only have so much patience...and i would put my life aside for you...im just scared you wont be in it anymore...when things like this happen i question what i've left behind for something i love so much...you.

i hope my message got to you...maybe it'll inspire you as much as it inspired me...chin up my dear.

the feeling is still the same whether you're here or away...infinate... ...the day we change is the day we die.

i need one of my own. Squint to see me lead you somewhere we are us. Where alarm clocks chirp out dust, non-beliefs are hushed - and then there's us. There's just us.

the lake looks like a sheet of ice...lets break it... ...welcome home.

i've been living off Elliott this weekend. i can't even comprehend how this music makes me feel... ...it makes me think of you. please come home soon. i can't stand days alone.