since this website has been down for the past few weeks i've found a new journal...it's not as good as this one but i feel like i cant neglect it...since it didnt neglect me like you did song meanings...im truly sorry for this...i hope you forgive me.

well...let me tell you...i was way too busy/tired by the end of the day to update...but i will fill myself in on the days events...day 2 consisted of the degrassi marathon and fireworks(almost lighting the house on fire)..day 3= hellfest...it was much better than i expected it to be...it might have even convinced me to go next year. you come home today...i hope you get home earlier than i expect...i'd love to see you asap...the 3 full days of loneliness was ok...i learned how to cope...but now im ready to socialize...oh and on top of all this...the horoscopes are good...which means nothing really...but it's something i can add to the list of great things on this already perfect day. dont say you're sorry because sorry means something is wrong...and believe me...nothing is wrong.

im still getting by...quite nicely actually...im still missing you...alot....but there's nothing i can do but live...might aswell enjoy this thing called living too...so i played golf today...and im not too bad...good job sam...keep up the good work...he'll come home soon enough(i love you).

tonight the sky was clear just for us...im going to talk to my little star hoping that you're doing the same...goodnight.

sometimes i wonder if anyone sees this....though i think im the only one who reads this stuff...and i do it often...maybe that's why it's here...so i can remember all the memories i've made....insignificant they might seem...but i know how i felt when i made them..nobody could ever come close to knowing...therefore im glad im the only one who reads this crap over and over again...even though i know these things are safely stored in my brain...i want to make sure i cant print it out someday...hoping someone i want to understand will....so here they are....all for you samantha...enjoy. tom....i love you so much...despite the fact that we've grown apart and gone our separate ways...i've realized that you will always be there...even if you're not here...good luck in all your future endeavors. you arent answering your phone...i miss you too much...i wish i could sit still for you all day...but im afraid im human...i only have so much patience...and i would put my life aside for you...im just scared you wont be in it anymore...when things like this happen i question what i've left behind for something i love so much...you.

i hope my message got to you...maybe it'll inspire you as much as it inspired me...chin up my dear.

the feeling is still the same whether you're here or away...infinate... ...the day we change is the day we die.

i need one of my own. Squint to see me lead you somewhere we are us. Where alarm clocks chirp out dust, non-beliefs are hushed - and then there's us. There's just us.

the lake looks like a sheet of ice...lets break it... ...welcome home.

i've been living off Elliott this weekend. i can't even comprehend how this music makes me feel... ...it makes me think of you. please come home soon. i can't stand days alone.