im going to shoot myself in the head. im writing this here just because. And because none of my friends remember I have this lovely account. so they can't try to save me.

well I was talking to the one I love the other night,she knows,but I havn't acctualy said "will you go out with me" or something cheesy like that,and I was wondering why she hadn't said anything about a very important letter i sent her. And when I asked if she got it,she said "what letter",and my heart sank,but at least I knew she just didn't want to answer it. But shortly after she said she never receved it,she stated that she was having a great summer,and how she's so tight with her friends right now. Then she said it's great not being attached right now. And that's cool,but I love her,and would like to just be with her. I wouldn't be clingy,I swear. Ive been in love with her since November,and next year we have classes together,which will rawk. My friends called it project vulcan,more on project vulcan,in my next entry...

well today was my first time as a user on songmeanings.net. My friend Nick told me about it when we were talking about music in ann arbor,one of the coolest placs in north eastern michagan. We went to a buddest shop,it had gay pride stuff,vegiterian stuff and all kinds of things that celabrate diverity. I loved it. And nick found a great book called "Aqua" While we were their we all went to a jazz concert upstairs(of the buddest shop).and we also ate at mongolian BBQ, It was one of the better nights of my year. well since this is my first time,and since you were gentle,i'll tell you all alittle bit about myself. I am 16 and live in monroe michagan. I am a buddest,and I don't eat animals. I love punk,indie and exparemental music. I am a photagrapher,and I paint and draw alot. I write poetry and songs in my spare time. theirs more to me,but im done typing.