This will be my first entry ever. I figured ill title my entries with songs im diggin at the moment. Its been almost a year since my life changed. I had to leave the greatest group of people behind and lose my only chance of happiness. I know for a fact ill never find a greater group of friends like i had in NY. They were one of a kind. Ill miss them. Second point...I finally knew what love and heartbreak felt like..it sucks. I could blame myself, i could blame her..it doesnt matter it wont change the fact shes happy with somone knew and im here lying to her that im doin fine. I feel like a fuck for lying. I wasnt happy, i didnt move on, and i still miss her. Am i supposed to still feel hurt for this long? i mean Damn..im pissing myself off because i still dwell onit. I should let go..but itl probably still leave a scar. I used to yell at people whosat and got emo over Exes. Now here i am...spewing sentences from an Ataris album. Its sad. Maybe something good will come out of this.hell! i heard people fall in love 7 times in their life. Maybe i got 6 more chance to make it right. But until then.."ill just comb my hair and wash my face.keep straight ahead and keep my pace. Just think about nothing and my days will be alright. I got my friends, I got my band, I got a million distractios to keep me warm and i know that ill be alright."