i guess since i have had to give up ujournal i'm stuck with what ever filler this has, hopefully nothing can be said or read. I'm not sure what to say, since it's been so long since I have used typing as a way of realsing, he's right you always dream about that in which you think about uncoinsciencely. I wish i could let go of what ever i'm holding on to, it's hard though. You begin to believe that it's over and it comes bouncing back, they say i write scary. I really don't know what is so hard about getting off with this, once i thought that a desguise and a few song lyrics would get rid of whatever I'm holding on to, it only stuck further. Now i'm here wishing I was gone, as if that has ever worked. I guess what I really need to be doing is realizing that I can't help those looks and personalities people have, I can't make her realize she is wrong, I can't stop anything and complaining hasn't gotten me anywhere either. So as much as I hate the idea of forgiving I guess what they say it works. rule one: - never again complain, never - never again look back, the past will never set you free - never again rethink what has happened, it stands still and never changes - write more, paint more, read more, and defaintly breathe more now that's done.. now for some steps in the proper and right direction! 1. As much as you hate the idea of burning something you help on to for so long, get rid of the friendship box, it is only hurting you more. 2. Write a list of everything you need, and wirte a list of everything to do to forgive. a brilliant dance begins! - because she was brought up to believe that she has control, because no one ever looked through her but you, she wanted it back. not only are you better then what she made you but you need to feel it too, you need to know that you are above that completly.! - remember that a year from now you will never see her again! too many things happen that we can't change, now I need to learn how to forget those things

how the hell do you add lyrics, goodness