Man, it's been forever long since I've updated this thing. First thing I wanna point out is that I'm the only one of my friends NOT using xanga.com as a journal device. I wasn't bout to give in to the peer pressure, especially when this site has a lot to offer the aspiring musician. So NYAH to all the rest of you Xanga-ers. Neways, a lot has happened. I dont remember it all, but i know it happened. Um, a few days ago was band practice (me, Craig, Anthony, Nolan, n Mandy)@ Mandy's. It sounded good actually (raggae Fresh-Prince, neone?), especially since we were jes goofing off. The serious playing wont come until Mandy has some drum tabs down, but who cares? we're in it for the fun neways. Um, bout 3 days ago we (Me, matt, anthony, craig, n Mandy)went to Matts place n listend to Bobby Mcferrin cds. Lemme tell you, that man is a genius. He could beatbox his way outta paperbag if he needed to. So we jes chilled there for several hours, n went home. Tuesday I was sitting around the house doing nothing. I've been doing a lot of that now, but only cuz I like to relax, especially after being out n about w/ my friends. However, this particular day I jes had nothin to do n was bored outta my mind. So i get in touch w/ Denay around 8 n we go to the mall. It closed at 9, n we dint feel like goin home. So we gave Craig a call to see if he wanted to go see Anger Management w/ us @ 10 at the Cinema Cafe. A good movie like that for only a dollar, wow. *free advertisement- Go to Cinema Cafe on Tuesdays and all movies are a dollar. !!!1 Dollar!!! $!!GO!!$* So now im ordering parts online for my Haro. And I already know a bunch of you who read this are gonna ask wut a Haro is....its a bmx bike, there. Not too many people know i bmx, its a little hobby i like to do during the summer. Ive been going for about 5 yrs now, and have been thinking about joining the pro-am circuit when I get to college. Ill worry bout that later tho, I need to go pick out some new wheels. Later Daze -oh, and go here and look for the picture of a kitten- .http://www.kariberri.8k.com/pictures/randompix.html

OK, so yesterday was JRs Funeral. Generally I was able to hold my own and b strong...u know, a sob here or there. But I eventually broke down when I saw Mr. Panoff get up to view the body. It was so sad... I mean, I know that some people think that he's this total asshole, but I know that he cares for all of his students, and that it hurts him terribly when he loses one, especially one he cared for. The look on his face made me cry for quite some time. The sermon was a good one though, and it put a lot of peoples minds @ ease. Im glad that JR is resting now, that he gave his life to God. Afterwards we joined to procession to the graveyard, where there was a short ceremony. We all left and went to his house for fellowship. His family seemed to be taking it pretty well. Afterwards, we (me, both Mandys, Sarah, Derek, Amber, Rob, Corey, Chase and Nolan all went to Dereks place and chilled there for a while. Then we got bored and walked to Courtneys house for Karaoke (for about 3 hours). Neways, we eventually started to leave round 730 or so, but Derek Chase and I stayed to keep Amber company til her ride arrived. Finally we left and headed for Mandy E's house, cuz thats where everyone else was heading. Derek, thinkin he was all macho gungho n shit had us runnin around til like 10 at nite, cuz he thot he knew exactly where Mandys was and dint feel like taking advice on directions. Somehow we ended up REALLY far from where we shoulda been....like Lynnhaven Mall far. Finally we found Mandys house, and it was like 3 streets away...no more ten minutes walk. Derek had us runnin around for about a good 2 hours. Neways, we chilled there for a while, then all went our seperate ways. So despite the loss of our friend, we all felt comfortable w/ it, and were able to have a good day. Cheers! Later Daze .

OK, so heres an account of the past couple o' days. Yesterday I went to the church for the Les Mis recordings, and nobody showed up xept me, both Mandys, Sarah, Jordan, Troy and Alex. So we were stuck there rideless for about an hour or so, and we wound up getting really raucous and random, hehe. It was great. Fruit Salad Today was fine too. Kelly picked me up so we could go to the recording this morning. We drove over there, jes talking and having a generally good time. We arrived and sang for wut seemed like forever. We left, got gas, and took the long way home (i guess so anyways, cuz we coulda gotten home a lot faster jes by taking Indian River) and jes enjoyed eachothers company. I got home and slept pretty much all day. Sumtime around 730 or so i went to the mall and met up w/ Anthony, Craig, Nolan, n Mandy K. We chilled for a few there, then went to Atlas Grill for dinner. Too much happened there, it was crazy-funny. Afterwards we went to Barnes & Nobles, then each went home. Tomorrow is JRs funeral. I want to be strong so that I can be strong for my friends as well. Star Fruit....Later Daze

Today was a rockin day. First, I went to the band room to help Mr. Panoff take down the stuff so that we could repaint the room. Afterwards, me, Chelsea, Sarah, Matt, Denay, Megan and Anthony all went down to Woods Corner to chill and go to the thrift stores. I found an awesome Sesame Street shirt and some cool Vans i bought for my sis for a buck-fifty. Afterwards, we went (minus Denay n Megan) to Matts, where we met up w/ Mandy, Craig, n Nolan. Fun times were had. Then I came home... I've been talking a lot to Kelly lately. I care for her, but i guess you never realize how much you TRULY care about someone until something tragic happens. All of these things are piling up, and I wanna be there for her and take all of her burdens away to make them my own; to save her. I have no idea how to say what I'm feeling about all of this, xept that I only want her to be happy right now, but that's proving to be difficult. I don't want to be overbearing either, tho, and make her feel uncomfortable around me. *sigh* I need to tell her some things, but not 'til next time I see her in person. Some things just cannot be said over the phone or online. Im glad I have my friends, but I can't help but feel something isn't right. Sumthins missing...eh, wutever. Dwelling on trivial ideas ruins a good day. Later Daze

Last night was definitely a night of reflection. One, a bunch of my friends graduated. My congratulations and best wishes go out to all of them. Most of them are probly getting back from the all-night grad party, just about...now. (6AM) Even though it was such a joyous occasion, a lot of us had something on our minds: A student of Tallwood by the name of Alan (J.R.) Wade had drowned in Lake Christopher earlier in the afternoon. I didnt know him personally, but from the times we ran into eachother, i could tell he was a nice kid, and had a bright future ahead of him. I may have even had the privelage of being his Drum Major next year, cuz he was in band. Its so sad... The death-toll goes up, the Tallwood curse never fails... R.I.P. - J.R. Wade 1985 - 2003 Also, the old man that had a heart attack and died at graduation last night, was the grandfather of my friend Matt. My prayers are with both families. Yesterday was still a good day, a day of recognition, reflection, and reverence. In the course of twenty-four hours, so many lives were changed. Who does time stop for? .

YES!!!!!! I'm Drum Major!!!! Wahoo!!!! Yipee!!! @right!!!!! ..... Now that that's outta my system...... So I watched all 3 parts of "The Godfather" Trilogy, and it got me fired up to make a movie. Its gonna be cool, bout the life of a young kid who is born, grows up, and then dies, in a mafia family. I want Corey to be my main character, probly Sarah to be his loving sister, and either Anthony or Rob as the oldest brother who despises him for gaining the preference of their parents. Robs gotta be in it tho, so if hes not the brother, he'll be the hitman. either way, hes gonna b involved in the death of Coreys character. So the story is sorta like this: - First off, the movies more like a music video, revolving around the "Godfather" theme. The music provides most of the emotion for it, so no dialogue is involved other than the subtitles im putting at the bottom....a "silent film" if u will. - Anyways, 25 years of Vincente's life are crammed into the 3 mins of song, so lots of time lapse is involved. Hes born, and his parents invite his 2 older siblings, Maria (Sarah) and Guido (Anthony or Rob) to meet the new baby. Guido immediately is anti-littlebrother, but Maria loves her new brother dearly. -Next few shots r gonna involve happy times in his life, but in the background (of perhaps a party or graduation) you can see his family involvment in the mob, and how he is drawn in. His parents decide that he will one day control the business in favor of his older brother, Guido. Guido is furious. -The last 2 scenes involve the murder of Vincente. Guido will definitely be tied to his death. The final shot (while the sad mandolin plays in the background) is of Maria standing at her brothers gravestone, sobbing. Guido will come up behind her, a cold look upon his face, emotionless. Maria is oblivious to his involvment in the murder. He escorts her away, and the camera pans into the headstone. That last parts gonna b hard, cuz i gotta go to a Cemetary AND find a headstone w/ the name Vincente on it, or at least another cool Italian name like it. O well, i have all summer to finish it. Well, its a watered down version of the story, but its gonna b really good in the end. It could take some time, but Im stickin to it. After all, I got my Drum Major position, whats stopping me from making some really good movies this summer? Im in a good mood, I hope it stays that way for a while to come. = D Later Daze

YAY!!!! Tomorrow's my last day of school! Can't say i'll miss it, but i sure will miss the people.I'll definitely miss a bunch of my senior friends, and all of my other friends I'm pretty sure I wont see over the summer. Well, songmeanings was down for awhile, but now that it's back up, i can finally update. RX Bandits was this past wednesday. I went w/ Craig n Nolan. The show was so good, they sound awesome live. Friday night was the Drama awards. I waited all night anticipating next years show. I am TOTALLY doing drama next year after hearing that West Side Story was on the agenda. If I don't get the part of Bernardo, i'll flip out. Saturday night was David's BDay party. Not quite as good as last years, but I had fun neways. Not a lot is happening personally. Megan and I still arent talking. I dont know if things will ever change, but she needs to grow up some (I'm not the only one who feels this way). Er...I need to buy a new wheel for my Haro after I jumped off the loading ramp @ Farm Fresh and bent the rear one. In order to do that, tho, I need a job. Luckily my dad works part-time police security @ WalMart, and he says the manager is willing to give me a job. Tomorrow is the day of Drum Major "tryouts." I think it's odd to do so, since the senior always gets the job, but if Mr. Panoff sees it fit, then no argument there. I've been waiting for this for soo long, a responsibilty as big as this. I won't let the band (or myself) down. Things are turning in my favor for once. I guess Senior year won't be so bad afterall. It's gonna make leaving home a lot easier when i graduate in a year. Only thing that could make it all better is if a girl would find me (I'm tired of looking for a girlfriend, I'll just take ppls adivce and let her find me). = ) Later Daze

I dunno. I might be... A lot happened this week. A friend of mine and I arent talking anymore, cuz i got pissed that she kept claiming she loved me, and due to my stupidity i went off on her, saying she dint mean it. I just dint appreciate how she always threw it around to make things better for herself, hoping it would appease ppl. I tried apologizing, but she has yet to reply to my attempts. Oh well, no skin offa my back. It was only a matter of time before i lost another friend, so its not very surprising. Fuck me.... This led me to stop lying to myself, cuz i thought for once i might have had a real friend. Nope, no friends for EJ, cuz a friend would wanna talk about our differences and try to work things out so things could be the same again. *Another "friend" you wont miss anyhow* , eh? Alas... In other news, Les Mis is finally over! YAY! Sure im gonna miss a lot of the ppl in it, and the show, but i wasnt quite as attached as the actual drama kids. Back to my normal dorky band life, heh. I can only pray that things dont change and I remain top spot for Drum Major next year. To be able to accomplish that would be a dream come true. Now i can go back to my regular schedule, which means I probly wont be seeing too much of my crush anymore. I can make the best of it though and try to stay friends w/ her, spending as much time as possible w/ her without getting annoying. Life has gotten complicated lately, but nothing I cant handle. Later Dayz. * And they never said there'd be days like these...*- LTJ

There is no way LTJ can get any cooler than they already are, is wut i thot as they prepped to play their show Thursday night. They proved me wrong. Every time I see them they get better and better. Great songs like "All My best Friends are Metalheads" and "Very Own Flag" keep them alive. Unfortunately it wasnt their tour (damn GC and NFG!!!) and they couldnt play longer, but their hour of playing was good enuff for me. Then Friday and Satuday night I had to do Les Miserables again. I cant get over how much weve done for this play and how good it turned out. After Sat's performance, a bunch of us went to IHOP and chilled. Its been awhile since ive been able to get together w/ the 'group', and it was nice. We end Les Mis next weekend. Its gonna be hard to see it end, but all will be fine. Tonite is the MXPX Battle of the Bands. Im going, but I probly wont make it to the MXPX show 2morrow. Heh, not like im missing any important band neways. -Do you think its strange, that there's a way, of how you look how you act and how you think, pretending they're the same as you?- LTJ Later Dayz, EJ