So, my ex boyfriend Wes was at my school to play football today. I was standing with the guys when he came up behind me to say hi. My thoughts? Something along the lines of "Why the hell are you talking to me you stupid cunt faced whore?". yeah, I think it was something like that. GOD! As far as I knew we were on good terms when we broke up, but then next thing I hear is he's shit talking me at work. I chose to disregard it because I hate gossip. After hearing it from five or six people though I figured he's a jerk. Then I heard it from more people. Where does he get off cutting me up? I dumped him for a valid reason, I'm sorry if i hurt him, that wasn't my intention but when two people are in a relationship and one of them is suffocating it's time to call it quits. He said he loved me, and something tells me he couldn't have loved me that much if he's willing to spread around that I'm a dirty whore.

So yeah, doing an online journal is still feeling kinda weird, but what the hell have I got to lose, right? So I spent the past four days in Ottawa and Quebec, absolutely amazing, thinking about Nick at least half of the time. "Why?" I ask myself again, and again, and again. I didn't think I'd allow myself to get this "into him" I guess you could say. He's a year younger than I am, which is so weird, but then again, he's far more mature than the last guy I dated who was older than me. I have no clue what he thinks about me though, and I hate that. We've been spending more time together lately though. We use to just talk every now and again in photography class, then we ended up sitting beside each other in writers craft so we talk every day. Now we talk after school, during class, inbetween class too. I think he's coming over weekend after next. I sure hope so, I really want something to happen between he and I.