i love marissa soo much. i think she is the one for me cuz i get this tingly feeling inside everytime i think about her. i know its true love because i have never felt this was about anyone before in my entire life. she makes me happy and she makes my life complete.i love marissa soo much.

marissa got out early cuz she got out yesterday,so i am really happy about that. i am definantly going to see her this summer. i love her soo much.

i have made up my mind that i am going to dump christine and diana cuz i only love marissa and i want to be with her for the rest of my life.i am moving out of my house after school is out this summer and moving in with my friend garrick,so i will be able to finnaly get to see marissa and hopefull she will be allowed to stay with me for a week or so. i am really worried cuz marissa tried to kill herself by hanging herself from the ceiling in her bathroom. she would probally be dead now if it wasnt for her aunt finding her,so i am so grateful she found her before it was too late. her aunt said she will be getting out of rehab on friday,i hope she ment friday of this week cuz i really miss her and want to talk to her really bad. i love marissa so much,and i would'nt be able to live without her.

well alot has happened since i last updated this thing. for one i found out that i really wasnt dating ashley at all instead it was her cousin lying to me the whole time and sending me pics of her cousin so in reality my gf never really existed.i am now dating ashleys cousin,yes the one who was doing the lying,dont ask me why i forgave her but i just did maybe cuz i really got to know the person who i thought was ashley,but i am also dating marissa too as well as christine,i dont know what to do. i am feeling depressed and i want to die cuz life sucks.

im just sitting at my computer being depressed. ashley and her family moved back to london so my plans of moving to cali to be with her may have just went up in flames.we are still going out but i really want to be close to her,so ill just continue to be depressed and feel sorry for myself.

well its 4th period right now and im in the library.its almost time for lunch,but i cant stop thinking about ashley,i love her sooo much.i hope she gets online tonight so i can talk to her.she is the only good thing in my life right now and i never want to lose her.

i fucking hate living in this house with people who dont want anything to do with me unless they are putting me down. i cant wait till next summer when i move to california so that i can be with the only person in this world that actually loves me,my girlfriend ashley.