hiyas i am so fucking b0red...its 8:30 and im waiting for u ta call...hopefully u will at 9:00...and i know u cant get on until tomorrow...but jus in case u dun call tonight :*(...im sorry for the way ive been and its been a lot of things today okay well start with WHY ive been n a bad mood reason one: im praying to gawd my parents dun get what i was trying ta print...b/c if they do u might as well kiss my ass goodbye so im stressed about that reason two: that idiot tIM came over today and decided ta be a perve and i may be naughty but im not naughty ta ppl who arent my b/f and him snapping my thong wasnt funny and i didnt appreciate it...he doesnt seem ta understand that HES NOT MY B/F!! i thought he understood that when i smacked him for kissing me errr!!! okay so im worried about our friendship b/c regardless hes one of my best friends!!! reason three: i dunno what my problem has been and theres sumthin else ive been listening ta hatebreed too much i think b/c i seem ta get mad n angry when i listen to it reason four: with all of that....since u labled me as

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Willow594 [2:13 PM]: sumthin happen haha CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:13 PM]: but it clears ur signasis CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:13 PM]: lol it hinkt hats hwo its pselled CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:14 PM]: someoen gave me 20 bucks to spray it in my eyes CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:14 PM]: lol Willow594 [2:14 PM]: lmao Willow594 [2:14 PM]: kewl Willow594 [2:14 PM]: \haha CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:14 PM]: hey 20 bucks is 20 bucks lol Willow594 [2:14 PM]: yeah i would have dun it....oo theres this psycho that lives n my neighborhood CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:14 PM]: god red hot chillie peppers they get on my nerves shoudlnt they be dead by now my mom listened to them when she was liek my age CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:15 PM]: lol what do they do? CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:15 PM]: they cant be to much crazyer then me Willow594 [2:15 PM]: he target practices with his gun n his backyard n there a houses 10 ft from his targets..stray bullets...n plus hit up on me n my sis n hes like 40...i ahe the chilli peppers Willow594 [2:15 PM]: *hate Willow594 [2:16 PM]: n plus hes jus really freaky CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:16 PM]: lol Willow594 [2:16 PM]: hes married Willow594 [2:16 PM]: n has a baby CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:16 PM]: so what i shoot guns and hit on u lol CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:16 PM]: jk CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:16 PM]: thats nasty CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:16 PM]: lol Willow594 [2:16 PM]: n im outside all the time....ive never seen his wife its like he has her confined to the house CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:16 PM]: oo Willow594 [2:16 PM]: hes jus a weirdo Willow594 [2:17 PM]: lmao Willow594 [2:17 PM]: gives me the creeps CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:17 PM]: lola nd i dont?> CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:17 PM]: and i dont* Willow594 [2:17 PM]: no ur funny CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:17 PM]: o lol Willow594 [2:17 PM]: hes weird hahaha CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:17 PM]: lol CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:17 PM]: be nice now dont make fun of the crack head CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:17 PM]: lol Willow594 [2:17 PM]: hahahaha yeah dun wanna piss him off CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:18 PM]: lol CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:18 PM]: id throw rcks at him whne hes shooten so it hits him right afat he shoos os he thinks a bullet ricashayed and hit him Willow594 [2:19 PM]: HAHAHHAA omg thats funny...very good idea lmao...we have woods behind our house n stuff so me n my sis walk the dogs at around 11 or 12 and n the middle of the woods is a cemetary n its so kewl CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:19 PM]: ahh cool CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:19 PM]: lol CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:19 PM]: i want to come ova ur house CrZy PuNkEr123 [2:19 PM]: lol Willow594 [2:19 PM]: b/c i dun go ta sleep until around 3 am n my parents dun care b/c im homeschooled yeah u should

1. My name: syd 2. Where did we meet?: internet 3. Take a stab at my middle name: i dunno 4. How long have you known me?: a while 5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: a lot 6. Do I smoke?: only after sex with me 7. What’s my favorite color?: pink 8. When you first saw me what was your first impression? when i first saw u? haha, i need a pic for that 9. My age? 14 10. Mi birthday?: i dunno 11. Color Hair?: i dunno 12. Color eyes?: i dunno 13. Have you ever had a crush on me? yea 14. Have you ever been jealous of me? yea, cus u can see u but i cant 15. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?: talk online 16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? no 17. Whats my fav type of music?: i dunno 18. Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?: make out at that spot that holly made in the woods haha 19. Am I shy or outgoing? outgoing 20. Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?: funny haha 21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?: rebel 22. Would you consider me a friend?: yea, hopefully more than one this summer 23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?: ur somethin else alright 24. Have you ever seen me cry?: no 25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? my girl 26. Are my parents still together?: yea 27. Do I have a nice butt?: i hope so 28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me? yea 29. Do you love me?: yea AM I………. ?!?!?!? 31. Quiet or loud? loud, or at least when u moan, lol jk 31. Short or Tall: tall 32.Weird or original: original 33. Smart or stupid? smart 34. Boring or Fun? fun 35. Attractive or Unattractive? attractive DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it) 36.A psycho? no 38.Athlethic? yes 39. A nerd? no 40. A slut? no 41. Ghetto? no 42. A *itch? no 43. Two-faced? well, u can be a good girl, and a bad girl haha 44. Obnoxious? no 45. Immature? no 46. Mature? u look like it haha JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS 47. What do you think I'll be when I grow up? a model 48. A) Do you think I'll get married? to me? B) If you do Who do you think I'll marry? me maybe haha 49. When is my birthday? i dunno 50. Who is my best friend? ur sis 51. What song(if any)reminds you of me? bump bump bump 52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? no 53. If you could rename me, what would my name be? really hot girl 54. Have you ever had a dream about me? i think so 55. A feature that you like about me: ur personality and ur boobs :-D haha 56. If you could give me anything, what would it be? an orgasm :-) 57. Algo que me caracterice? huh? GIRLS ONLY ANSWER QUES 58,62,69 and 70 (dont think u wanna answer the other ones lol) 58. Am I physically ugly, average, decent, good-looking, beautiful, hot? hot 59. Would you ever kiss me? id do more than that 60. Would you ever consider being my boyfriend? hell yea 61.Do you ever think about me off-line? sometimes 62. If we spent a day together..where would we go and what would we do? ur room, sex 63. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? hot 64. Do you or have you ever had a crush on me? yea 65. Do you want me? yea 66. What word do I say all the time? awesome 67. Is there anything youd like to say to me? yea, i wanna see u this summer

Fill this out about me (then send it back to me)*BUT FIRST* Send a Blank Copy To All Of Your Friends (So They Can Fill It Out About You! Got It?? BE HONEST......! 1. My name: Cynthia Okray aka SyD 2. Where did we meet?: Gag puke cough DEREK 3. Take a sab at my middle name: Faye 4. How long have you known me?: about a year or a little less 5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: a lot but i cant answer some of these soo hahaha 6. Do I smoke?: SyD smoking...hahaha NEVER 7. Whats my favourite colour?: Red 8. When you first saw me what was your first impression? never saw ya 9. My age?: 14 10. Mi birthday?: 12-7-88 11. Color Hair?: brown 12. Color eyes?: brown 13. Have you ever had a crush on me? hahaha oh yea baby 14. Have you ever been jealous of me? naw not really 15. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?: smoke some bud and fuck a lot 16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? hiyas 17. Whats my fav type of music?: rock fata 18.Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?: smoke some bud and fuck a lot 19. Am I shy or outgoing? both but to me outgoing 20.Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?: sarcastic but hey its the best 21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?: rebel (syd following the rules haha yea right) 22. Would you consider me a friend?: of course buddy 23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?: something else hahaha naw um punk and all the nice shit hah SLUT jk but flirting isnt a crime ...is it? 24. Have you ever seen me cry?: answer this have i seen you at all? 25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? wacko syd haha but syd takes care of it all 26. Are my parents still together?: i think 27. Do I have a nice butt?: haha YEA BABY (when you read it, read it like austin powers would say it) 28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me? haha after a couple of hours, i need some humor in my life 29. Do you love me?: lylas AM I………. ?!?!?!? 31. Quiet or loud? loud when your screaming my name hahahahaha jk 31. Short or Tall: tall compared to me 32.Weird or original: both but being weird is awesome look at me i turned out ok 33. Smart or stupid? smart 34. Boring or Fun? fun 35. Attractive or Unattractive? havent seen you but i bet ugly jk attractive DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it) 36.A psycho? naw 38.Athlethic? yea 39. A nerd? naw 40. A slut? hahaha hmmm jk naw 41. Ghetto? naw 42. A *itch? haha arent we all 43. Two-faced? naw 44. Obnoxious? naw 45. Immature? hell yea but fuck man isnt it FUN 46. Mature? yea but only on right terms JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS 47. What do you think I'll be when I grow up? anything your set you your mind to 48. A) Do you think I'll get married? yea B) If you do Who do you think I'll marry? some guy you love hahaha or a girl no wait thats illegal 49. When is my birthday? 12/7/88 50. Who is my best friend? ME hahaha i dont know 51. What song(if any)reminds you of me? click by gc because how you are who you are and wanna be yourself and not everyone else (hey did that rhyme?) 52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? bart off of the simpsons always getting in trouble hahaha 53. If you could rename me, what would my name be? naw syd is good 54. Have you ever had a dream about me? haha uuuh huh me NEVER (phew that went smooth 55. A feature that you like about me: attitude 56. If you could give me anything, what would it be? some pot 57. Algo que me caracterice? say what joes email 1. My name: 2. Where did we meet?: 3. Take a sab at my middle name: 4. How long have you known me?: 5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: 6. Do I smoke?: 7. Whats my favourite colour?: 8. When you first saw me what was your first impression? 9. My age?: 10. Mi birthday?: 11. Color Hair?: 12. Color eyes?: 13. Have you ever had a crush on me? 14. Have you ever been jealous of me? 15. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?: 16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? 17. Whats my fav type of music?: 18.Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?: 19. Am I shy or outgoing? 20.Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?: 21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?: 22. Would you consider me a friend?: 23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?: 24. Have you ever seen me cry?: 25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? 26. Are my parents still together?: 27. Do I have a nice butt?: 28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me? 29. Do you love me?: AM I………. ?!?!?!? 31. Quiet or loud? 31. Short or Tall: 32.Weird or original: 33. Smart or stupid? 34. Boring or Fun? 35. Attractive or Unattractive? DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it) 36.A psycho? 38.Athlethic? 39. A nerd? 40. A slut? 41. Ghetto? 42. A *itch? 43. Two-faced? 44. Obnoxious? 45. Immature? 46. Mature? JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS 47. What do you think I'll be when I grow up? 48. A) Do you think I'll get married? B) If you do Who do you think I'll marry? 49. When is my birthday? 50. Who is my best friend? 51. What song(if any)reminds you of me? 52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? 53. If you could rename me, what would my name be? 54. Have you ever had a dream about me? 55. A feature that you like about me: 56. If you could give me anything, what would it be? 57. Algo que me caracterice? GIRLS ONLY ANSWER QUES 58,62,69 and 70 (dont think u wanna answer the other ones lol) 58. Am I physically ugly, average, decent, good-looking, beautiful, hot? 59. Would you ever kiss me? 60. Would you ever consider being my boyfriend? 61.Do you ever think about me off-line? 62. If we spent a day together..where would we go and what would we do? 63. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? 64. Do you or have you ever had a crush on me? 65. Do you want me? 66. What word do I say all the time? 67. Is there anything youd like to say to me?

I met this guy named Aaron when i had just moved across the country. My sister and brother were really hoping they would meet new friends. I was still really depressed about moving. Then about a week after we had moved my little brother came and summoned me outside saying he had met a lot of boys that lived in the new neighborhood. So reluctantly i walked outside to meet his new friends. And that was when I first met Aaron. It's a good thing I'm not a person who relies on first imprections. He was covered in greese and cursing at his go-cart he was working on. I was pretty disgusted at first but then i got a different feeling. It was the gut feeling that he was the one to meet because he'd make a good friend. Everyday after that was spent two houses up the street with him. Swimming in his pool, jumping on his trampoline, hanging out in his room, and all that good stuff. The plan was that we (my brother, my sister, and I) would be at his house between 10-11:00 am and we'd be back and forth from his house to our house all day. After my parents made us come home then he'd call me. It's safe to say he was obsessed. We were really becoming good friends. I felt like i could trust him. Then one night, about six months later, while we were talking on the phone he told me that he loved me and wanted to be more than just friends. I was scared and I didn't want this to happen because he was too good of a friend for me to lose him. So I told him that. He was able to understand. But still, he spent the next year chasing me and begging for a chance promising nothing would happen to our friendship. Annoyed, tired and persuaded I finally agreed. Which just like I knew was a horrible idea. We started fighting a lot and i didn't even know why. So I ended our relationship. Despite all his promises, our friendship died. He was obviously very hurt. For the next six months we didn't talk or so much as look at eachother really. It hurt me too and i just tried to forget. My parents then told us that they were looking for houses because the house we lived in was too small and they wanted a bigger house in a better place. I was crushed and confused. Aaron was the first thing that came to mind. I knew that I had to do something, atleast say goodbye and tell him what a great friend he had been, and what he meant to me. I talked to my sister and she agreed. The very next day I was sitting at the curb outside my house waiting for him to get off the bus. When I saw the bus come around the corner and I stood up and pretended I was getting the mail. Once he got off the bus and started walking down the street towards me I asked him if I could email him. He looked shocked and explained that he didnt have the internet anymore but that I could call him any time I'd like. From there we gained a new friendship and it had begun to blossom. At night he would sneak out and come to my window where we'd trade letters that we had written to eachother. In the first one he ever wrote he asked me to be his girlfriend again. I knew that being in a relationship with him was what I wanted more than anything. And what I knew I could never safely have. I spent the rest of night thinking of what my answer to him would be.

hiyas lol its okay its safe ta read im not gonna bitch u out or nuthin =D its kinda long but please read it all b/c its important (ta me anyways) and its stuff u need ta hear and know about how ive been towards you!! ive been doing sum thinking....and im trying to apologize (again...) for the way ive been...and this time its different (ill get into that n jus a sec) it seems like everything was pretty great except my mood but ya know between us b/4 we became b/f n g/f...i still havent found out why maybe b/c i jus wasnt ready or sumthin and i know that that annoys u and i cant expect u ta understand but its jus the way i am and so we brokeup for w/e the reason i dun feel like u told me the whole truth but it doesnt matter this is wut ive come up wit....okay.... i actually jus got home from the hospital a few hours ago...on saturday i went over ta my grandparents as u know...and well i was great until where i jus got my ears pierced starting getting infected b/c i used my gmas rubbing alcohol ta clean my piercings and hes had an infection and she contaminated the acohol...so i ended up getting both of my infected to and they started throbbing it felt like i was getting my ear pierced over and over again and i had ta take the ear rings out...and then i got a 14ga tongue ring and told my dad ta shub it thro the hole n my ear so that i could keep it open which was a horrid idea b/c when he started forcing (thro a 20ga hole) blood and infection stuff started squirting out and so i ripped the thing back out of my ear and gave up...and went off by myself and started crying not b/c it hurt but jus b/c wut ive been doing to myself and all the shyt that has been happening (not wit u or my friends jus with myself) and yes its me who holds myself bac whenever i was younger i was physically, mentally, verbally, and sexually abused by my father and ive had trouble letting go of that even tho its over ill always have ta deal wit it and feel it and it effects my moods and choices today...i DO NOT under any circumstance feel sorry for myself...and im NOT looking for pity or sumone ta feel sorry for me i jus want sumone, like my friends, to understand but how can they when they dont know?? so i get myself no where...and anyways so i (once again) tried ta kill myself only this time i got sum rat poison and bug poison and sum other poison and drank/ate that n my gpas garage when i walked out i went into the living room wit my cousin Tony and was really pail so he asked me wut was wrong and i didnt say anything and about 5 mins l8r i went unconcious and so (i guess, i wasnt awake lol its jus wut they said) he called 911 and i woke up the first time n the ambulance and n shock i passed out again and woke up on an IV line n the hospital u could see the poison running thro my blood stream my veins were transparent and they were green and orange...so the doctor came in an so did a counselor and i spilled everything the doctor said it was amazing that i lived and thats jus it wut ive been missing i am alive and most ppl dun get 5 chances like i have so this whole time ive thought that god turned his back on me he was really looking out for and im still here so there must be sumtin more that he wants for me or id be dead so now im going to wait...and after i told the counselor everything...i decided that i needed help and im finally not too scared to ask...my mother signed me up for stress managment (which is a lot like anger managment except wit stress u physically hurt urself instead of other ppl) im getting some counsling once a week and more community service only working wit ppl who are less fortunate than me so ill learn jus how lucky and stupid i am and for once be thankful....im also FINALLY able ta change back to the way i was...lol of course it wont be over night but im starting now....and so now it comes bac ta u...JOE IM REALLY SORRY!!! sorry for so many things i dunno where ta start...im sorry for being a bitch...id do that b/c id see wut i could get away wit by pushing my friends away and seeing whod come bac....n the end i lost many of friends and a b/f to it...but it did help me ta see who my real friends are...but it was an unfair test.... joe; im sorry for bitching, im sorry for fighting, im sorry for hurting you n everyway that i did, im sorry for being selfish, im sorry for being a horrible friend, im sorry for not being a good, perfect g/f, im sorry for trying to test u when i knew n my heart i could trust you, im sorry for not taking the risk of trusting you better when u trusted me im sorry for not being there for you im sorry for not putting n all my/the effort needed into our friend/relationship im sorry for turning my back on you im sorry for not treating like u deserve to be treated im sorry for giving up, im sorry for acting like i dun care, when i truly do, im sorry for acting like i dun appreciate you, when i truly do, im sorry for saying that i love u and making it feel like i lied, when i meant it, im sorry for things i said that hurt and that i didnt mean, im sorry for repeatedky breaking your trust im sorry for not saying this sooner, im sorry that its too late. and theres so much more, the list goes on.... IM SORRY...i hope that u will find it n your heart to forgive me. b/c it will NEVER happen again! Here's a poem... Stone by Stone By: uhhhh hehe I've built a wall you can not see, Because its deep inside of me, Allowing my emotions a place to hide, And it cages my heart on every side, Blocking anyone trying to reach in, I can't remember when it began, I'm refusing to reach out, You wonder what it's all about. This wall that will remain, Results from pain, Self mutilation, And life destruction, So stone by stone I built a wall, That is now so thick it can't fall, Creating, in chains, a place of refuge, From the problems that seem to be s huge. I wish i could better explain, That it's not you, But please keep trying to break through, For love from you will make me stronger, I don't want the real me to die any longer, So bit by bit, Chip at my wall, Until stone by stone it starts to fall. The process will be slow, It's never easy to let go, Of hurts and failures made, From feeling the pain of dreams fade, I'm so scared to let you in, I know I might get hurt again. Building the wall, Has got me nowhere at all, Everyday, Stone upon stone i stack, Leaving between them not even the slightest crack, The only way to make it fall, Are imperfections in the wall. I did the best i could, but i left a few small flaws, Which are the key, To breaking through my cage to me, For just as stone by stone was laid, With every hurt, with every pain, Stone by stone the wall will break, As love replaces every ache So will you be the one who cares enough, To find the flaws, no matter what? I'm sorry if this has been corny lmao but im jus trying to explain Heres a song that reminds me of the way ive been to you, Staind Epiphany Your words to me just a whisper You faces so unclear I try to pay attention Your words just disappear 'cause it's always raining in my head forget all the things I should have said So I speak to you in riddles because my words get in my way I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it wash away 'cause I can't take anymore of this I wanna come apart ~*~*or dig my self a little hole inside you precious heart~*~* 'cause it's always raining in my head forget all the things I should of said I am nothing more than a little *girl* inside who cries out for attention yet I always try to hide and I talk to you like children but I don't know how I feel but I know I'll do the right thing if the right thing is revealed But it's always raining in my head forget all the things I should have said. the raining in my head thing is like confusion Anyway...i was thinking and id love more than anything ta be your friend and i think that it would be really kewl ta have a guy that is my friend that i can trust as much as i trust u...and one whose like u n that you're nice and who isnt always jus using our friendship jus b/c he wants ta get wit me...so if you would still like ta stay friends please let me know...and sorry about that email i wrote that the morning b/4 i went ta my grandparents...Joe im really truly sorry :*(....and i im looking forward to talking ta you, if u still decide u wanna be friends, as myself....and hopefully this will be over and u will be able ta trust and get ta know who i really am...b/c im leaving the uglyness behind...so please...i wasnt sad or mad, my heart didnt drop into my stomach or swell up n my neck whenever we brokeup...i felt like a weight had been lifted b/c i believe its time for us ta start over so dun worry about getting an grief about that b/c as much as u [claimed] to have liked the fake, old me i know ull like the real me better....you mean a lot ta me and uve given me strength that i didnt have b/4 and words cant explain my gratitude towards you for that and i owe my new sucess ta you...even though getting here is pretty much too late and our friendship may be ruined b/c of my stupidity ill never forget you b/c of wut uve done for me and the countless hours of your time u wasted on my selfish [self] ways...it means the world to me and once again IM SO SORRY....please w/b and tell me how u feel towards us being friends n shyt lol cyas l8r.... lotsa love, -cynthia- (Syd) xoxo

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