ok i just logged back into this account after 3+ years. i forgot i had it until i was looking at song lyrics, saw a username - clicked on it and read the profile realizing it was me. lucky enough i remembered the password so here i am. reading those old entries, i was so naive and dumb. i hate that but i wish i could go back to that time knowing what i know now. i still love staind with all of m heart and the new deftones album is an astonishing achievement. someone write me!

so.. the rollingstone issue with my letter in it is off shelves now. *sigh* had a good run. i bought 2 of the issues just to keep. they haven't sent my stupid new balance shoes. people keep telling me i got gipped because the people who's letter won this issue got concert tickets and the people before me got better prizes.. like concert tickets and an mp3 player thingie. i don't know. i don't wanna be ungrateful. i'm just glad they picked my letter as their favorite. i wonder if anyone disagreed or agreed with what i said, or even found it funny? i don't know.. yep. i'm listening to cursive. yay!!

devin hurt me tonite. i wish he was romantic. i know not a lot of guys are but that'd be so amazing.. i took the time (once again) to write him something nice to show him how much i love him and appreciate him for his love and who he is and he kind of shrugged it off. i just wanted to know he appreciated it or that he even got it or something.. i just wanted him to acknowledge it. i guess to him that was asking too much. i wrote a poem about it, that was very healing.. i just want a bit of romance. i want to stop being jealous of other girl's and their relationships.

hm.. i'm trying to add some song lyrics.. i can't figure out how to. idiot much?