Yeyeah song meanings is back! I think its funny that my last entry was about wanting to be in a band. that was a little bit of a passing craze at that time, but now I'm going for it hardcore and have a full guitar and recording rig set up in my room. I have about 2 fully finished songs right now and about 6-8 "starter" songs. I am now at the point where I am looking to join a band for real now. Or at least Jam with some serious guitarists and write some stuff and then have it turn into a band. I want this next one to be my pet project! Again I invite anyone who reads this in the Dallas area to email me if you are serious about writin some toons.

I have always been a decent song writer, and i wrote 2 more songs today (well the first one was just a practice song to get me back into the swing of things and to get me pumped it write songs). The secound one I like alot becuase it has a good story behind it (but I don't think most people will like it as much as my others becuase the song actually has a double meaning in almost every line, and I'm positive that people will only get the obvious one which isn't neraly as good as the one noone will get... oh well at least it will be good to me). So this is getting me really pumped to be in a band. If their are any drummers in the Dallas area that want to start a band (I'm thinking the music somewhere between real emo and real punk [no fake stuff here... wierd combo eh]) my email is in my profile. I'm not really expecting anything, but it might be cool if it works out. It would be easier on me at least...I think there is a shortage of drummers at UTD.

Well I seem a little lost right now... my life is taking me in the ddirection of computers (I am a computer science major right now after all) but I dont think that will make me happy in the long run. Ive never really thought of myself as a computer person really (just someone in with the left brain logic to figure things outs and like the logical programming problems). Ive always thought of myself as a music person really. I know how to play 2 instruments (violin and guitar) and the only thing I love more than music is my friends (yeah its sounds sappy, but sometimes I'm like that). I guess what I am trying to say is that I am not sure If I want to go into computers. Maybe I'll switch to some multimedia major and get a career in music production or something. I know that this school doesn't have a great music program (if it even has one)... but I would hate to have to leave my friends here. I might just start another band for now. I'm not sure if I want to play guitar this time, but I know that I want to do vocals this time around. I think I have a decent singing voice and some skills when it comes to song writing. Even If I dont play guitar I could still come up with some parts to help the band (still got some decent skills even if I feel that I could be the guitar frontman....). But who knows I'm lazy and might not get around to it for a while...

just my luck....

Well, I havent ever really used this journal before and I am not sure why I am starting now (I guess its becuase my site was hacked and my database was fried so im too lazy to set my script back up...but that is not the point). Now for a bit of an introduction. I am a college student and love hanging out with my buds around campus. I currently am living with 3 of my friends from Hghschool (Mark, Scott, and Richard), but within 2 months should be living with some of my new friends that I met this year (Cam and Jacquie...Yup they are a couple). Maybe Its just the rum messing with my head or the fact that I have been awake for over 20 hours, but I have reached an epiphany. I have come to a point in my life where I need to make a few choices. Some of my options might make me and a few others happy...while risking throwing off the balance of my 'world' as I know it. While others will will just leave things the way they are, and thus leave me in the rut i have been in for a while. (its the nice safe choice. I have also realized just how important my friends are to me... Which is why I feel so torn about where my loyalties lie when it comes to making a choice that could effect one of my friends. At the very least my new rooming arangement should play out like a soup opera from my point of view (seems like my life has been a tv show for the most part... I mean my dad works at the school I goto...that just screams sit-com!). After the little 'drinking party' that we had today I was in a sour mood went for a walk. I have done some of my best thinking on the walks I've taken in my life, so I figured that it might help calm my nerves, and let me tell you, there is nothing like a 30 minute walk through the rain to calm an upset mind. I think I might be getting sick now though. Well I think I have passed the point of being informitive and have slipped into a state of ranting (something I am very good at by now). I might keep up with this thing or I might not...I just didnt feel like writing in my journal right now...