Wow, I haven't posted anything in the journal here before, but its never too late to start - plus, I just need to let off some steam. Anyhoo... Love sucks. Relationships are lame. I've learned that over the course of the day and thats my two cents. My best friend (well, not anymore) aka my love interest, whom I was head over heels for and thought he felt the same towards me (he said so at least), ended up just wanting to use me for a piece of ass. Probably about the lamest thing ever. Thank the lord for Matt. Without him I would've been used as a 2nd grade ho. NO thank you. I haven't really confronted *him* about it. Then again, I don't really know if I feel the need to, or even the right to since we never were really going out. We were just friends with benefits that expressed lots of physical and emotional junk towards each other. Whatever the hell all of that means. Then again, none of this might even be true, I highly doubt the possibility of that though. Some people just really need to rethink their priorities and what the hell they're doing to another person. I don't know, but I just think if you're going to sink low enough and use someone - don't do it to someone who is so close to you. Then again, if you EVEN THINK about sinking that low - you probably don't give a damn about the relationship or the outcome of your actions. Are there no decent people on this earth?? Do I just have bad luck in love and relationships?? Why me?? I guess all of those, or at least most of those answers will remain unanswered for a while. I just hate being heartbroken. I've been far too many times. It just royally sucks and I just can't..I don't know. I just don't understand. I guess i'm just too frustrated, hurt, and angry to try and understand. Oh well. In the words 'er lyrics of further seems forever: "I am rejection, I am redemption. I am desire for obligation. I am forever, I can be never if thats what you want." Yeah. Thats all i've got for now.