I don't fucking understand him at all, he is such an ass. He can't bother to be there for me or my two brothers but thinks he can be there for this chick he wants to date? ... He misses so much of my life and has absolutely no remorse whatsoever for this. He is just a terrible person. The other night I said "I'm sorry I don't embrace you as my father..." and he said "That cut me Rachel, that cut me hard..." Better him than myself. He says how I hurt him, but he doesn't realize how much he hurts me everytime hes not here .. honestly he needs to grow up. Its just not right that I don't have a father, not in the sense of the caring pro-active dad .. yeah he did help make me and all but thats it. I hate him .. he brings me so much unhappiness. *rach*