I don't even feel for KJ. I only can think of this year as something that was once and never will be again. We just split apart. I brought his ex-girlfriend back into his life, and the two times the three of us hung out as three best friends, I was just there so they could be together. Ya, even though they weren't going out. If I couldn't be there they couldn't be with eachother. But now KJ doesn't give a flying fuck about me, even though he acts like he does, and he doesn't understand why I give him the cold shoulder. I just can't have someone like him in my life. If you've ever seen that episode of True Life on MTV, "I'm breaking up, I'm making up" that's me and KJ without the sexual contact and stuff. Cuz we never went out. But that was us. I like Ryan. I asked him to class night and I'm just going as a friend with him. But someone also asked a friend of mine, Scott for me. I didn't really want her to, but I wasn't sure if Ryan was gonna say yes or not. Scott said he'd go if Ryan says no. But Ryan will say yes cuz I'm supposed to ask this girl for him, and she'll say no, she WILL. Ryan also said Scott was asking him about me and was like, "So, are you going with Erin to class night?" and he said it in a voice that Ryan thought men he cares more than I think. Which made me feel good. I'm also planning on going to a concert with the both of them this summer. My life will be so much more free without KJ littering my mind with plans that wont come true. I'll love this. I hope. It's wierd without him snapping at me sarcasticly to make me feel like shit, or acting like he doesn't care when he might. It's a wierd feeling that I wont try to invite him over and he wont be able to make it. I'll see him just as much as I didn't when he told me he loved me (as a friend) and said I was his best friend, daily. Everyday he mentioned our friendship. And now all I'm getting is a "I can't do anything cuz I'm going over to KJ's house to go in his new hot-tub." from his ex. That's it. So it's over in one school year. Yup, I knew he would be a yearly friend.