today hasnt been great my friend amanda has been in a place called tamarackits a mental hospital/rehab/outreach kind of thing and today she got a leave and i was supposed to meet her at her house at 5 pm but i was doing yardwerk and dealing with my moms drunk boyfriend and i forgot about it now i feel like shit because i wasnt there when i told her i would be fuck shit cunt

last night i went to a show:as ashes fall,crooked,and prozac staple.it was my first time in the mosh pit and that was some fun fun shit.i saw an old friend of mine there named james the last time a saw him was almost a year ago then i noticed alot of the kids i meet that are "normal" turn into trendy goth kids its kind of sad they dont know much of good music they cling onto bands like slipknot allways wanting the hardest music they can find but i guess thats thier problem eh oh well.when i went to the show i was supposed to meet up with a friend of mine named nikki which i did but she seemed distant from me more involed with her ungodly friends so i seperated from her and went to enjoy the music on my own but after the second band finishedi couldnt find her again so i asked one of her friends that as far as i could see i could get along with without wanting to stab them after five minutes and he told me that she had to leave so i stayed until the show had finished and i saw james again and he had a cut in his head so i asked if he was in the mosh pit and well yeah he was some one had fell on him er something im not really sure though because it was pretty fucking load in there and then i caught my ride home with my moms boy friend when i woke up this morning i was the only one in the house thats when i remembered that my moms friend carol and her daughter amy had came into town for bloomsday a 7 mile race which i wanted no part in but its allways nice to see carol and amy we usually have fun well its 6:58 and im bored so im gonna go