It sux having a lot of friends and not really liking any of them. It sux being the center of attention but not wanting it. I only want the attention of one but he hates me now. I don't know who ruined it. We both did in a way. He ruined it more though. How come I don't totally hate him then? I want to. The whole time he said I made him happy, and he suddenly stopped being happy and I think he blamed me. I used to blame myself too, but now I don't. I blame him for the unhappiness I have now though.