so, i just realized i get to write on here. and im so glad. i need to rant and rave like every other person. i didnt want anyone to read it, and i dont think anyone will. i mean, if you do, thats cool, but im not sitting here hoping and praying for someone to read this. i feel like such a jerk for so many things, but who am i to try to please everyone? i realize this has nothing to do with my favorite song or my favorite band, but fuck that. none of that really, truly matters. and right now i want nothing more than for my phone to ring and it to be him. hes not my boyfriend, but hes my ex. and maybe im crazy for wanting to talk to him, but i dont care. i dont care that hes hurt me SO bad, i dont care that my boyfriend hates him, i dont care that my friends make fun of me for wanting to talk to him. i know this is such stupid high school drama and it will be okay eventually. but,*sigh*, the worst part is that its just another day....