Not put anything in here for a while. Im still with Chris, its going really really well. Ive still to find anything I dislike about him. I really do love him. He really become the center of my whole world. We had a little issue today though. He got really jealous/paranoid when Damian rang, as he doesnt really feel comfortable with me and him still being in contact. I can understand why, id feel the exact same. So ive deleted Damian from my phone and im only gonna talk to him if he rings me etc. I didnt like it at all. I could tell he was angry or upset of whatever and he wouldnt tell me untill i'd textd him later at about half four. Sorted now though so its all okay. Still feel a bit funny/not very nice from it though. General life is going okay, its just me. I feel so down/drained all the time. Its like im waiting around for something significant to happen and it feels like im just drifting along not getting anywhere. Problem is, what im waiting for (uni, results etc) i dont really want to happen. Its terrifying. I dont want my whole life to change. but at the same time i feel like im being sufocated by my situation at the moment. *sigh* whatever. ill get over it

Well i went to Chris's house last night after college untill about 11:30. So we got to spend loads of time just us two in his room. It was so cool. Hes so hot, especialy when he was just walking about with just his trousers on, i love that. Needles to say we did it. I was uber pleasantly surprised, hes rather good indeed. I was just so nice, laid on his bed watching tv cuddled up. Ahhw, i heart him so much. And he has a really hot sex face.

Well I thought that because so much is changing I need a journal for me. None of the stupid lj shite. Well, the story so far. I’ve just got out of a horrid long-term relationship with a man called Damian who was horrible to me but falls apart without me. Issues anyone. I couldn’t help love him though. I couldn’t help hate him either. I broke it off because I didn’t like him anymore (loved him but didn’t like him) and because we were complete polar opposites. I am now with a perfect (...) lad called Chris. He went to school with me and we going out with my best friend of the time Emma when I first met him. We got together about 2 weeks ago after about a month of overly suggestive flirting. He makes me feel ... amazing. I don’t think I’ve felt this way about some one before. Early days yes I know but. I *heart* him. The *heart* thing, that’s one of the little things we have. One of the reasons I like him so much. As well as the fact that hes bright and blodey gorgeous. Home life = better than it has been, ever. College is a little heavy on the work load and fucking hell am i worrying about getting into university but i think with a big of effort i could just scrape through. Work is gay but i need a job. And thats about it. I shall update when interesting stuff happens, which will proberbly be friday night as i am going to christophers house and plan to shag his knob off.